My love of affair with writing...

[lettered]

Some people have said that falling for a fandom is a lot like falling in love. This is true for me: I can't stop myself from smiling; I think about it all the time; everything I see and feel and experience, I connect to that fandom; it's the place my brain goes when I'm not doing anything else; it turns me on; I want to talk about it all the time; I probably think that song is about it. So, I definitely, definitely have felt this way for a fandom.

What I want to know is, have you ever felt that way for a fic you are writing? I've felt that way for fics I have read--one or two have even become fandoms for me. However, I have also felt this way sometimes about a fic that I myself am writing, and . . . it feels a little awkward, a little self-involved, and yet for a little piece of time, it's the only thing in my world, and going to work gets very hard, because all I want to do is lie in bed all day and make love to it write it.

I felt that way about The Chuck Writes Story. I felt that way a little bit for The Boy Who Only Lives Twice--though that was really only a sustained crush, because I was in the middle of breaking up with The Chuck Writes Story when I wrote that one. I started writing a fic today and it felt like love at first sight--that happy, world-shaking feeling that you've met the one, the "I can spend my life with you!" feeling. When it's over, of course, I'll feel differently.

I just wanted to know whether I'm the only one.

Comments

[sophia_sol]

Oh, absolutely this happens to me. But I fall in love so easily that it is not a surprise to me -- I fall in love with new fandoms on an alarmingly frequent basis, and with many of the fics I read, and with, oh, SO MANY THINGS. It's a wonderful feeling.

[lettered]

Hee. Well, I don't fall in love super easily, but I definitely do more than some people in fandom. I don't understand being mono-fannish at all!

And I agree, falling for things really is a wonderful feeling.

[stultiloquentia]

Oh, god, not just you.

For the past several months, my brain has been behaving like an elastic band: I am supposed to be working on a commissioned Stargate story, and it's a good story; I'm excited by it; I want to write it—but every time I sit down with some leisure time, *SPROING!* and there I am, neck deep in a Glee daydream.

It's so dumb. GLEE is so dumb. It's wreaking havoc on my productivity in both fandoms, because I'm disciplined (or masochistic) enough to say, "NO, Stulti, back OUT of the Glee fic folder; that is your reward for finishing some Stargate," but not disciplined enough to steer my daydreams. And it's the daydreams that finish stories for me. On the train, on the walk home, in bed as I'm falling asleep...that's where I work out the tangles, start laying down dialogue, and basically get myself excited about putting words on paper.

That song is totally about your fandom. I am storyboarding the vid in my head as we speak.

[lettered]

that's where I work out the tangles, start laying down dialogue, and basically get myself excited about putting words on paper.

Me too. I write on the bus all the time. Walking to and from the bus stop, too. Luckily I have a very, very good memory for scenes I write in my head. I can even remember the ones I write in my head before falling asleep!

Are these different Glee fics, or is it one big one you're working on? I would read Glee fic by you, even though I don't know Glee. I've saved several ones you've linked to to read.

I'm working on right now that has me to the point of finding going to work or hanging out with friends absolutely torturous, because allllllllllll I want to do is write it. Also, I'm very impressed with myself regarding it, and am pretty sure I'm overlooking its essential flaw (no plot) just because I'm in luuuuuuuuurve. It's actually somewhat stressful, how much I like it.