I think the fact that Angel knows what can happen if he's perfectly happy is what will keep him from experiencing that feeling ever again.
Makes sense.
Did he think it was just the sex and that's why he was committing soul-suicide with Darla in Reprise?
See, I personally never thought he had sex with Darla to lose his soul. Imo, he didn't give a fuck. Maybe the thought crossed his mind, but if it did, it wasn't "ok, let's go lose a soul" and more along the lines of "I could care less either way." To him, sleeping with Darla itself was soullessness, loss of a soul. She was soullessness, and he was doing it because him having a soul just made absolutely no difference in his life any more.
When he realized what he had done and it still wasn't going to change anything--not because he didn't lose his soul but because he lost it and it made no difference--he realized if nothing he did mattered he might as well be doing good just for the sake of it. And he does. *sniffle*
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Makes sense.
Did he think it was just the sex and that's why he was committing soul-suicide with Darla in Reprise?
See, I personally never thought he had sex with Darla to lose his soul. Imo, he didn't give a fuck. Maybe the thought crossed his mind, but if it did, it wasn't "ok, let's go lose a soul" and more along the lines of "I could care less either way." To him, sleeping with Darla itself was soullessness, loss of a soul. She was soullessness, and he was doing it because him having a soul just made absolutely no difference in his life any more.
When he realized what he had done and it still wasn't going to change anything--not because he didn't lose his soul but because he lost it and it made no difference--he realized if nothing he did mattered he might as well be doing good just for the sake of it. And he does. *sniffle*