WIP Catalogue
Recently, I posted all of my finished fanfic on Archive of Our Own: here. It was an extensive day of cataloguing that made me realize just how much I’d written, for how long, and for how many fandoms. Turns out I’ve finished 50 fics. This includes drabbles (about 7), poems (about 2), and some flash fics of 1,000 words or less (about 10?).
It made me wonder how many unfinished fics I have floating around, since I’ve been doing that for even longer. So I decided to catalogue those too—not by torturing anyone by posting them all, but merely making a list to see what I had.
I’ve listed all unfinished fanfics that were over 5,000 words (and two that were under that, since I felt they were important), found either on my hard drive or places I’ve posted them. For each, I’ve listed the idea behind the fic, the history of my writing the fic, the status of the fic, and the likelihood I’ll finish. The likelihood is based on hopes, more than my actual fic history, but all the ones marked as likely I do have plans to finish, so—here’s hoping.
Here were some stats I thought were interesting:
Fandoms I have unfinished fic for: Alias, Angel, Arrows of the Queen (by Mercedes Lackey), Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Christy (by Catherine Marshall), The Dark Knight, Emma (by Jane Austen), Ever After, Gilmore Girls, Gone With the Wind, Harry Potter, North and South, Pride and Prejudice, Robin Hood (BBC), Sense and Sensibility, Someone Like You, Sound of Music, Star Trek (TOS and Reboot), While You Were Sleeping, X-Men (movieverse)
Total number of words of unfinished fic: 883,884
Number of words in posted WIPs: 204,803
Total number of WIPs: 34
Extremely Likely I’ll Finish: 5
Likely I’ll Finish: 9
Maybe I’ll Finish: 8
Unikely I’ll Finish: 3
Extremely Unlikely I’ll Finish: 9
Project: Half Sick of Shadows, North and South fanfic
Idea: big long Margaret and Thornton epic. It’s one of those crack forced marriage things, but I like making crack real!
History: Started this in March of this year. I got all the way to the epic, 20 page sex scene and then realized it didn’t really go there. After that I got stuck, and began to drift to yet another fandom. I wrote a whole lot, though, and know directly where I’m going, so I really feel a need to finish it.
Current Length: 72,402 words, about 60% done. Even thought that means nearly 50,000 words to go, I still feel like almost all the hard work is done, here.
Links: None of this has been posted.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Standby, Harry/Draco fic
Idea:This is an AU of DH, wherein Draco is disabled by the Fiendfyre.
History: Begun in August 2007, and I worked on it all the way until August 2008. This was off and on as I started and abandoned other projects, but this really highlights for me how seriously I wanted to write H/D, how hard I tried, and how many things I abandoned. The history of this one is particularly interesting, because I’d pretty much forgotten it, even though it was one of the ones I worked on the most. So, when I was going through my folders to write up this profile of it, I reread it, and I love it. I’m not sure I’ve ever enjoyed rereading something I’ve written so much. It made me so sad I haven’t continued it!
So all day I’ve been thinking about where to go with it. I had a plan for it, and now I know why I abandoned it: the plan doesn’t really work. In fact, I don’t know what would really work. The problem is that this is everything I want from an H/D fic, because it addresses so much between Harry and Draco, but it does not do a good job addressing the premise of the fic—Draco’s disability. I could and should address Draco’s disability, and yet I don’t know if it fits in the fic, which is stupid, since the whole premise is the disability.
Current Length: 22,549 words. For my previous plan for the fic, this is probably only 15%. I’m trying to think of ways now to do something different with it . . . maybe this is already half of the story I really want to tell.
Links: I’ve never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Another One Like It Tomorrow, Buffy/Angel fic
Idea: Angel repeats the same day over and over.
History: I started this in June 2005. I started it shortly after Best Souvenir, and for a while I was writing both fics simultaneously. In case it’s not obvious, I start many huge projects, which, if I did what I really wanted to with them, would be the size of a trilogy of slim novels once finished. I sort of stopped the way I always do, around August 2005.
My interest in it resurged in summer 2007. This was partly because my fannish focus in Buffyverse had shifted from B/A to A/S, and I had always meant to write some A/S into this one. So I pushed on through until I could write the slashy bits, which by the by were also very meaty dark bits. Then I figured I might as well try to finish the whole thing, and started trying to tie everything together.
I don’t think it would take me too long to make the whole thing work. I sent what I have to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
chrisleeoctaves, and I remain encouraged by what she said. I still want to put it out there, because it’s the longest thing I’ve ever done, and I think it would be a good experience to finish it. Plus, I still love this fic.
Current Length: 189,975. This is about 70% of the fic I was originally planning. Yes, the idea was a 250 K fic. Yes, I’m crazy. I’ve decided to eliminate some of the original plans, which makes me closer to maybe 90% done. Knowing me, this means it will still be around 250 K, which means my original would’ve been more like 400 K. But 60 K is pretty easy for me to write, and I really really really would love to finish something this big.
Links: here on fanfic.net or here up to chapter 28. The latter version is about 80,000 words, which is less than half of what I have finished.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Man’s Best Friend, Angel fic
Idea: Angel gets a puppy.
History: This was started in May 2007. It had been cooking a long time. I had wanted to do post-NFA Angel and his team of crack detectives, and I also wanted to do a strong Angel and Spike working together fic, which showed Angel slowly learning that Spike can teach him about being human. Jgracio’s prompt was the catalyst. Once I figured out that Angel gets a puppy was a way to pull together a lot of elements that I wanted to explore, I wrote all 40,000 words relatively quickly. I was so happy with the result that I grew intimidated, and the whole thing started to seem huge, and then HP7 came out.
And interesting piece in the history of this fic—even though it’s pretty important to me and I often think about finishing it, I almost forgot to include it in this list because it doesn’t have a Word doc. It was all written directly into the LJ window with very little planning or revision, one of the only times I’ve tried to fly directly by the seat of my pants. I put it in a doc today, in hopes that one day I’ll get to it.
Current Length: 40, 445 words. This is about 30% of the fic I plan on writing.
Links: everything I have so far
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: K/S TOS epic
Idea: This starts shortly after the end of the 5 year mission. It was inspired by what the TOS K/S that is hinted at in Laneaa’s fic, Home, so it’s goddamn sad.
History: began around October 2009 and worked on it until January 2010. For some reason I never got into a groove writing it. I stopped because I wasn’t feeling it. I also have the general idea of where I want to go, but not a step-by-step idea, and the whole thing started to feel humungous and arduous. But I feel like it’s something that I haven’t read, which I want to be written.
Current Length: 14,184 words. This is about 10%, I think.
Links: never posted any of it
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: ST Reboot sequel epic
History: This is one of the more complicated histories, though it’s in a really short framework of time. The problem was I fell for ST really hard, and I wanted to write everything about it that could be written. I fell hardest for Kirk/Spock, but I really loved the idea of juxtaposing all the new crew against the old, and the crack crew adventure aspect. What I really wanted to do was write something like “Man’s Best Friend”—something that had Kirk and Spock at the heart of it, but was about everyone on board, and had them all dealing with all the issues from Reboot, and issues that we know they have from TOS. I started 10—count ‘em 10—different fics that were all in this vein, mostly Kirk and Spock friendship or K/S related, but some just general. One is about Archer and Amanda and another is about Gaila. I don’t even know.
As you can probably tell this project just got overwhelming. I still want to write it, desperately, but I have just no idea where to begin. There are so many characters’ stories I want to tell, so many interrelationships between them I want to see. And as for K/S—dude, I want to write the epic shipper fic. But I almost want to write the epic gen even more, and I’m torn between the two. For a long while I considered writing something that was sort of episodic, which just did the whole thing piecemeil, and was really like a series of shorts more than anything else. Still thinking about it; still don’t know what to do.
Began in June 2009, and stopped trying around August—that was when I decided to buckle down and post Girls Are Great.
Current Length: 19,483 words. This is spread out between 10 docs, none of which really connect, even though they’re all pieces of the same thing. And this shit was going to be epic. I didn’t want to think about how long, but probably with all the ideas I had, it was 400 K epic.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Shatner/Nimoy RPF epic
History: Started this December 2009 and worked on it almost exclusively that month. I’d forgotten about it until last month when I found it in my folders. I did some editing on it and some thinking about where I wanted it to go. This is a difficult fic to write, but I really began it to have some way of synthesizing all my thoughts on Shatner. I also really wanted to write it for![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
my_daroga, because I think that she would like it and I want to be able to talk about it with her. It’s important to me for those reasons so hopefully I’ll get back to it.
Current Length: 9,852 words. This is maybe about 20% of what I wanted to write.
Links: Never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Test of Honor, Ever After fanfic
Idea: I dislike stories with a premise of mistaken identity that could easily be corrected. If Danielle had just told the truth about who she was, I could have respected her more, and I would have respected Henry more for gradually coming to care for her. As it was, a sort of hated the movie, but OTOH, I’m a total sap for Cinderella stories, especially the Pretty Woman kind where Person A knows from the beginning that Person B is a cinder girl/servant/prostitute/low life/etc. So, this is a retelling of the movie on the “what if” premise that Danielle told the truth the next time she saw Henry after freeing Maurice.
History: begun July 2004, stopped work August 2004. Despite only working on it about a month, I always planned on finishing this, and periodically I think about going back to it. I know what happens next, and it’s still interesting to me. And I still get comments from people wishing I would finish, and I’d like to do that for them.
Current Length: 21,048 words. This is about 50% done.
Links: ff.n
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Specific Obligations, Ever After fic
Idea: wedding night fluff
History: begun July 2004. This was because I thought the wedding scene was stupid, and because I wanted to show Danielle being a badass, and because I wanted porn, and because I wanted Henry discovering marks on Danielle’s back. Even though I was not the movie’s biggest fan, I was totally head over heels for the idea at one point, and I wanted to play with the aspects I enjoyed. This was a very silly fic, but it was never meant to be very long, and I feel like I could finish it with so little trouble!
Current Length: 7,276 words. This is about 70% done
Links: ff.n
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: the Vaisy/Hood/Guy/Marian one, BBC Robin Hood
Idea: My God, do I dislike this show. However, I could not help trying to pretend that Guy of Gisborne was a real person. Yes, it was because Richard Armitage was hot. But also, his character is ludicrous, and I wanted to see why he is that way. This fic is basically about everyone taunting and using Guy, and Guy being too petty and narrow and sort of dumb to see it. It’s also very much about closeted homosexuality, and some guesses about what homosexuality might have been in the 12th c, and some very severe daddy issues, family issues, home issues, and touch issues.
History: I started this last month! After several false starts in the fandom. The problem is that I don’t really know where this is going, although I know what I want it to say. For the past two weeks I just didn’t have time to work on it, and now I’m stalled. But I really hope to finish, even though I have no idea what to do next.
Current Length: 14,750 words. This is maybe a 20-30% of what I wanted it to be, although I don’t really know where I was going. The nice thing is that it sort of stands as a character study. If I really can’t think of where to go with it I’d like to tie it off and post it, as a statement sort of, regarding my fling with the show.
Links: haven’t posted any yet
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Best Souvenir, Buffy/Angel fic
Idea: Whistler never existed. Buffy meets Angel for the first time after the End of Days is over. Futurefic, alternate reality.
History: This was the first Buffyverse fic I ever started, in May 2005. I was in the habit of very long, epic shippy fics. In fact, to me, that’s all fanfiction was. There were a few short pieces, character reflections, that I appreciated, but that was not what I was coming to fanfiction for. I have no idea why this was the first idea that hit me, but I know I started writing it because I couldn’t find anyone else who’d done it, and it seemed to me a great “what if” to explore. I began it before I’d even finished watching S3.
This fic is important to me. It’s how I meta2zmom, and through a2zmom I met lots of cool people, and it’s the first experience I had with a beta. Like most of my other stuff, it just got too big and complicated, and I lost interest. I will say though that a2zmom had one of my chapters for the longest time (!) and I was able to use that excuse for a long time about why I wasn’t updating.
I had some very cool ideas for where this could go. I hope to look at those ideas and condense them in some way, so that the piece is actually manageable. But because it’s important to me, and because I know there were people who trusted me to finish it, the plan as of right now is to try.
Current Length: 60,000 words. This is one of those that will be some god awful length like 300 K if I can ever finish it.
Links: on ff.n and on lj
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Something Good, Sound of Music fic
Idea: retelling of Sound of Music from Captain Von Trapp’s POV. I love Maria/Captain Von Trapp.
History: I began this in August 2003. The absolute best thing about this fic was that through it and a fan board I met some truly awesome people, includingimnotacommittee. As with most things, I’m not sure why I stopped, around February 2004. I think I was getting into the final stretch, and had gotten what I wanted from it emotionally. I also got into Phantom of the Opera at the end of 2003, and it got hard to think about anything else.
Current Length: 30,041 words. Originally this was going to take us all the way to the end of the movie and beyond, but ever since I stopped working on it I’ve had it in my head to finish it once Maria and the Captain hook up, which means I’m about . . . 70% finished?
Links: I wrote this on fanfic.net under another pseud: here
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: fic based on Christy, by Catherine Marshall
History: begun in 1991; it was a sequel to Christy with the intent to see Christy and Doctor MacNeill happily ever after. Rebooted in 1998: turned into a retelling of the novel with the shippy intent still intact, but the additional intent to make Christy a skeptic and Doctor MacNeill’s skepticism the way to go. Rebooted again in 2001; 1998 material scrapped; returned to the sequel idea, but now with much porn. Rebooted once more in 2008; 2001 material scrapped; returned to the 1998 idea of a retelling, but scrapped the religious intents. Retelling the whole novel from Doctor MacNeill’s POV, with the shippy intent intact. Yes, yes I have been writing this fic for 19 years, since I was in 3rd grade, which is why I'd like to finish it. Of course, it is by no means the same fic, but to me it's always been the same thread going through it--basically, it's about what Christy means to me, and how my relationship with it has changed as I've aged.
Current Length: 16,395 words (about 15% done)
Link: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Xander/Angel Buffyverse fic
History: I started this in April 2007. I think it was a prompt fromcrazydiamondsue, or some kind of discussion. Anyway, I really wanted to do a metatastic and twisty fic about Xander/Angel parallels. There’s not really a plot to this one. It’s one of those ones that are more character study and meta than story.
Current Length: 7,349. This is maybe about 60% of what I have mapped out, though what there is does require a lot of editing.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Harry Potter/Draco fic
Idea: Standard Draco gets whammied by a love spell. While they’re trying to find the cure, Harry falls for Draco. The twist is, Draco’s spell makes him love Hermione.
History: This was begun in September 2007. I loved the idea, but I could never really get into the actual writing of it. The beginning seemed all wrong somehow. I came back to it in April 2009, but quickly abandoned it. If I do continue it, it won’t be the present version, because it sucks.
Current Length: 7,450 words. This was a monster epic idea. I haven’t even chipped the ice berg.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Honor and Dishonesty, Harry Draco fic
Idea: I really wanted to do a Harry/Draco fic that was about power and sex. With all Harry’s fame, power, and conviction that he has the right answers, he stands to be a very dangerous person after the war. What if he begins to realize that he likes to control people, so as a result, goes too far in the opposite direction? And what if Draco, a child who was very much abused during the war, for all his misdeeds, develops a complex where he likes to be dominated and controlled? There’s potential for a healthy relationship here: they could express their various D/s tendencies in the bedroom, thus making them more able to face the world. But I wanted Harry to be too ashamed, and Draco not to be able to ask for what he needs. I wanted it to be an exploration of what the war in HP did to these children, and an exploration of the difficulty of asking for what one needs in the bedroom, and also the difficulty of H/D in general—here are two people who never liked each other, coming to recognize the value in each other and learning to love each other. But there remain fundamental differences and a history of animosity, so that process of learning trust could be so slow.
History: I started this in April 2007 and worked on it through July. Then I started all over again with version 2.0 in January 2008. I really love the idea for this fic, but I really have no idea where to begin.
Current Length: 35,138 words for the one begun in 2008. This one begins with an unestablished relationship, whereas the one in 2007 was established. I thought I could examine Harry’s power issues before he meets Draco, and show that Draco was a stabilizing force for him, and then Draco begins to ask things of him that destabilize him. I still really don’t know where to start.
Links: never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: In Hiding, Batman fic
Idea: post The Dark Knight fic. This was supposed to be about everything that was wrong with TDK. My biggest problem with that movie was the end, with Gordon’s voice over. Gordon basically acknowledges that Batman did very bad things, and then says since he’s a hero who’s willing to do “what is needed” instead of what’s “just”. The worst part is the very strong implication that this is not only heroic—playing god, deciding what’s needing, and behaving immorally because you’ve decided you need to—it’s even more heroic than doing the “right” thing all the time.
As much as it upset me, I think it’s also what made me ship Gordon/Batman. Batman in the text is obviously fucked up, since he does do bad things, he does think he’s someone who can decide what’s needed, what’s right, wrong, who gets to suffer. What’s not acknowledged by the text is that Gordon is just as fucked up, because Gordon agrees with Batman and is willing to let him do what he does, and fucking admires Batman because of it.
So what I wanted to do is examine that fucked upness. This fic was supposed to be about Gordon falling farther and farther into darkness, following Batman down into the depths. In TDK we see Gordon behaving in a fucked up way to his family (lying to them because he needs to); in this fic he continues to do so and leaves any kind of healthy relationships farther and farther behind. At the same time as he descends, so does a Batgirl character who is the daughter of the previous commissioner, the one killed by Joker in TDK. She begins behaving like Gordon and Batman, but through her we see that they are essentially the same as the Joker. Gordon must condemn Batman to at last find the light again.
It was all paralleled with everyone being completely in the closet, too.
History: I started this in October 2008. It got really big and complicated, and the problem was, all I really wanted to do was share the meta I just shared with you. I quit because the task of the plot seemed to daunting, but as I write this now I realize that I could do a fic that is a lot of telling, and less showing, and it would do what I want it to without taking so much of my time. If I was interested in the plot, maybe showing would be worth it, but I’m not. I’m interested in redeeming myself after having written TDK porn, by writing something that highlights TDK’s problems ;o)
Current Length: 9,044
Links: First chapter. This is all of the above 9,000 words. I don’t have any more. I think that the likelihood of continuing this from here is “Unlikely”, but I think I could rewrite it from the beginning and that’s what’s getting a “Maybe”.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: insert for Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
Idea: This was to be about the Marianne/Colonel Brandon courtship, which doesn’t get any play in the book. It started with the moment in the Emma Thompson movie where Colonel Brandon says, “Give me an occupation or I shall go mad” to Eleanor, and then he goes and fetches Marianne’s mommy when Marianne is ill. It’s Colonel Brandon’s POV from there.
History: I never got past Colonel Brandon going to get Marianne’s mommy! I started it in 2001. I still kind of want to write the Marianne/Brandon courtship fic, but if I do, I’ll completely restart. So on the likelihood meter, a revamp of this premise gets a “maybe”. It’s something I’ve always wanted to write, and really care about.
Current Length: 2,600 words. This is less than 10% of the whole, but I had no idea where I was going with it.
Links: I never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Rough and Ready, Gone With The Wind AU
Idea: When Rhett leaves Scarlett to go join the war, she realizes she might be able to manipulate him. Because Scarlett kisses him and seems generally amenable to his advances, Rhett starts to think he has a chance with her, and promises he’ll come home to her when the war is over. He pulls some strings to avoid jail at the end of the war, and comes to Tara afterwards. The first scene is Rhett leaving Scarlett, and the very next scene is Rhett arriving at Tara. Meanwhile, everything else is the same—Scarlett has found her stomping grounds in ruins, everyone at Tara starving, and she’s working her fingers to the bone.
Rhett wasn’t expecting what he finds at Tara, but goes to work with sort of the same attitude he went to war, i.e., as a lark, he sort of wants to find out what it would be like to seem “noble” for a change. The main attraction of this fic for me was that everyone at Tara except Scarlett soon falls in love with Rhett. He’s a man who knows how to get things (his blockading experience was not for naught, in other words), he’s jovial and friendly when everyone else is dark and depressing, he’s big and strong and manly and all the women feel amused and protected. They’ve all been released from the strictures that required them to condemn him, and thus are able to fall into the fascination they would not have been able to admit to otherwise. Meanwhile, he’s still a dick to Scarlett, and Scarlett resents everyone fawning all over him. She feels sure he’s only being nice to everyone else to annoy her, which is mostly true.
History: I’ve been writing Gone With The Wind fic since 1993. All of them are like this: they take a specific moment from canon, pose a “what if?” and continue from there. This particular one got started in February 2005, but I’ve had the idea for this for some time.
I have a lot of problems with writing GWTW fic. The canon is extremely racist, and what’s frustrating is some fans don’t seem to realize or acknowledge that. My main interest in the canon is the Scarlett/Rhett dynamic. There are so many moments where if they would just notice what the other person is feeling, they might be happy; in some ways it seems like the quintessential “they just don’t talk to each other” romance trope. But the thing is, for them to notice or to talk or truly understand each other goes against the very essentials of who they are, and who they become over the course of the story. I almost feel they can never be together, and yet I need them to be. So, it’s fairly difficult to get them to cooperate, and how do I do so while acknowledging that Margaret Mitchell’s work itself, and the movie, are racist, the POV characters are racist, we should condemn them, and I agree with none of their views?
Anyway, this fic was so big that I got lost on it.
Current Length: 18,472 words. Nowhere near completion; this is about 10% of what I wanted to write. It’s got the initial scene where Rhett promises to return; it has Rhett returning, and a couple scenes with Rhett romancing Tara’s inhabitants.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: another GWTW fic
Idea: This one deals with that moment when Rhett gets home from England: he says he’s just there to drop off Bonnie; Scarlett tells him she’s pregnant; Rhett’s a jerk; Scarlett falls down the stairs. In the book there was all this stuff about how she missed him when she was gone and kind of wanted the baby she’s carrying. There’s also all the stuff right before he goes to England with the almost-rape. So in this fic, Scarlett decides she’s going to make Rhett fall in love with her so he won’t go away again when he returns. She’s nicer to him when he comes home; he’s less of a jerk; they don’t fight; she doesn’t fall.
One thing I liked about this fic was Rhett haranguing her about her clothes. He does it when she’s in mourning for Charles Hamilton; I’m thinking in particular of her pantelettes. I like to think he just does that all the time—he’s totally more of a fashion diva than her.
History: I forgot all about this one, too! Which is sort of amazing, since I started it in December 2009. This bug really does come around every 4 years.
Current Length: 4,000 words. I have no plan for this, so I don’t know how much more it needs. Presumably it would go on forever.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Empire of the Cellar, Phantom of the Opera fic
Idea: I didn’t even have an idea. I just wanted to write POTO fic. It started with the daroga and Erik facing off, and with Christine’s return. I know I was interested in a fic which had Christine realizing that her happy life with Raoul was too picture perfect and unexciting, so when he conveniently dies she goes straight to Erik. Meanwhile, Erik has actually learned something, and doesn’t actually want her any more—partly the whole Edward Cullen/Angel “she can’t live a normal life with me!”, but partly also Erik realizing that Christine is a child, and wants Erik to make her life a fairy tale adventure, instead of trying something real. As I write this I realize I totally did have a plan, and it was sort of interesting!
History: Began this in October 2003, right after I got into POTO. Abandoned in November 2003, one month later. I got obsessed with something else shortly after POTO, so never spent as much time with it as I would have otherwise. I have often thought of this fic because I would like to write SOMETHING epic in this fandom, but I really have never had an idea that just sings to me.
Current Length: 7,021 words. This is an extremely small part of the epic I’d planned on . . . maybe like 5%
Links: I actually did start posting this on ff.n. I think it was under Ilandra, but I erased it in some kind of purge or other. I don’t remember why!
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: another Gilmore Girls fanfic
History: S3 ended on a very sad Lorelai/Luke note. I believe this was a quick “fix it!” I forgot I wrote it. There’s porn. It looks done to me, actually. Maybe I should post it, but it’s hard to bring myself to care enough about it to even read it over.
Current Length: 6081.
Links: I never posted any of this
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe? Since it’s practically done.
Project: sequel to X-men 2 movie
Idea: This was a huge monster epic that included all the stuff I liked from the comics and cartoon, all the ships I wanted, all the slashy subtext I wanted (that I didn’t realize was slashy at the time), and all the issues I wanted to be explored. Basically, I loved many elements from X2, but felt that the movie series was already way too bloated with characters and action sequences, and that they were never going to address what I really wanted to see, namely: Professor X/Magneto, Professor X/Moira McTaggart, Scott Summers and Logan UST, Wolverine/Rogue, Ororo/Nightcrawler, Nightcrawler and Wolverine identification and friendship, Nightcrawler and Rogue friendship, Nightcrawler and Mystique mommy issues, Rogue and Mystique mommy issues, Scott Summers/Jean Gray angst, Scott Summers and Kitty Pryde friendship, Scott Summers and Professor X identification and friendship, Scott Summers being a badass, Henry McCoy, Henry McCoy identification and friendship with other characters who are blue, Marie/Bobby dealt with in an intelligent way, Bobby and Pyro UST mirroring Wolvie and Cyclops UST, Magneto/Rogue squickiness, OMG I wanted it all.
History: Begun in May 2003. I stopped because it got so huge, and because I was not having fun in that fandom community. I always really wanted to write the fic, so in summer 2004 I came back and cleaned up some of the Wolverine and Cyclops angst and posted it as a short on fanfiction.net. Interestingly, it is all about the slashy subtext, but I refused to admit I wanted them to have angry mansex at the time.
Current Length: 16,504 words, this is less than 10% of the monster epic that was going to happen
Links: The Beehive Mind on fanfiction.net is a sort of prologue to this. I later incorporated it into the epic itself. I never posted any more of the epic
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely
Project: another Gone With The Wind one
Idea: In this one, Scarlett agrees to be Rhett’s mistress. He offered once on the porch in Atlanta shortly before things got quite so bad. One of the problems with Scarlett/Rhett is they both seem repressed and they both seem like toppy bottoms. There’s that one part where Rhett practically kind of rapes her; Scarlett seems to enjoy not only the sex in that part, but being dominated and being forced. Meanwhile Rhett was repulsed by it and hated himself for it. I think both of them would like their lovers to take control, but both see that as a weakness and so refuse to give an inch where sex (and the relationship) is concerned.
In this fic, Rhett is more dominate; he basically uses the fact that Scarlett gets turned on by submission to get her to agree to be his mistress.
History: I found this in an old file folder. It says August 2005, and there’s only one doc so I assume I wrote it all in one or two sittings. I got past the point where Scarlett agrees to be his mistress, up to the first sex scene. I barely remember writing this. When I found the doc I wasn’t even sure it was my writing (sometimes I save other people’s fanfic out of fear they’ll pull it), but it’s definitely mine!
Upon scanning over it, it’s pretty squicky. I don’t know if I realized that while writing, but I’m interested in the squickiness. I mean, the whole “rape” scene in canon is icky, and yet the circumstances are very compelling. Scarlett is raised in the 19th c, with very conservative values. Even though she herself is not moral, she still has all these ideas about sex which make me sad.
Also, I still have those problems with writing GWTW fic because the canon itself is so icky for completely different reasons.
Current Length: 12,011 words. This is probably about 10% of the story.
Links: I don’t know if I posted this or not. I know that I signed up for a GWTW thon and tried to complete my fic for it, but I have no idea whether it was this one or not, and now I don’t even remember the mailing list the thon was on. I should be able to find it, but I remember the GWTW fandom community not being my cuppa . . .
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely
Project: retelling of Arrows of the Queen by Mercedes Lackey
Idea: So, I’m a huge Talia/Dirk shipper from this series. It’s the only series I like by Mercedes Lackey, and I’m sure I like it because I read it when I was 14. I always wanted more Talia/Dirk, and hated what an ass Dirk was in book 3, and wanted him, instead of Kris, to be a part of the big psychic emotional storm in book 2. Book 2 was my favorite: I love empathy as a super power, and really wanted to see how awfully Talia and Dirk could hurt each other and how momentously they could reconcile with Talia’s whole emotional breakdown going on. So, the plan was to rewrite book 2, but in this AU, Dirk gets assigned as Talia’s Herald. They have to go on circuit together, with all their pent-up emotions. A lot of the same things happen, but you know, angstier, and with more porn.
History: I started this in 1999. In 2001 I picked it up again and typed out the whole first three chapters of the book, which remained unchanged from the published version, since Kris hasn’t been picked as Talia’s Herald until part-way in. I did tweak little bits to up the Talia/Dirk angst, to make Talia more a Mary Sue of myself, to be what I thought was poetic, and to worsen already bad writing that much more. In 2002 I gave it a reread and edited the whole damn thing, and then proceeded to sit on it. In 2003 I continued where I had left off and finally begun to post.
Current Length: 70,000 words. This is less than 30% of the way through the fic I wanted to write.
Links: I began posting this fic under the pen name “Moswen” on fanfic.net in 2003. I posted about 4 chapters, which was about half of the material, but I lost interest. Then my RL friend found me and I deleted all my fics; I didn’t care about this one so it didn’t matter to me it fell off the face of the Earth. I still have it in doc form, though.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely.
Project: Lemons and Lilac, Pride and Prejudice fanfic
Idea: This was to be a series of reminicenses about Mr. Darcy’s childhood. Basically, it’s all the moments that lead up to him being such a douche to Elizabeth Bennet, plus all the moments that make it so her refusal of him affects him the way it does. I thought that it must have been impressed on him from a very early age that he should be gentlemanly for her comments to affect him so, but that he hadn’t realized until after she’d said he wasn’t gentlemanly that he hadn’t known at that young age what a gentleman truly was. I wanted to witness his paradigm shift, I think—to have him looking back and realize what he thought was one thing was really another. I saved it as “dichotomy.doc”—I think I meant the dichotomy between what he thinks a gentleman is and what he realizes it to be.
History: Started writing this in my early days of hanging around Republic of Pemberley, so in 2001. I didn’t know where I was going with it, but I posted the first part anyway because it seemed complete to me, in a way. It was a vignette of Mr. Darcy’s relationship with his mother at a very young age. It was called “Lemon and Lilacs” because those were the scents he associated with her. Although the piece isn’t strong, I’m thinking about posting it on Archive of Our Own because it might be readable as a one-shot, and I want to preserve my fanfic history somewhere.
Current Length: 5,533 words. I don’t know how much this really is, since I didn’t know where I was going with it.
Links: I posted the first part of it at Republic of Pemberley, but they did an archive revamp and I never spoke up for it, so it got axed.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: fic based on Jane Austen’s Emma
Idea: This was a continuation of Emma from the end of the book. Emma and Mr. Knightley were in the early stage of marriage, still living with Mr. Woodhouse. It was one of those misunderstanding fics where both parties start doubting that the other loves him/her, namely because they aren’t having sex. It was going to build and build and then there would be smut. This was a style I learned from many Jane Austen writers at the time.
History: Begun in November 2001. I don’t even know why. My big JA love is S&S, and I had no idea where I was going with this fic. I read this over very recently when the 2009 Emma adaptation came out, and discovered it was ATROCIOUS.
Current Length: 10,788 words. I have no idea how much of the fic this is, as I had no idea where it was going, but I’m guessing this was only about 15% of the story arc.
Links: I posted this to the Republic of Pemberley under the pseud “Joyce Elizabeth” in 2001. They did a rehaul of their archive in 2002 and this was unfinished, so it got deleted.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: another Gilmore Girls Fanfic
Idea: This one is set when Lorelai first got pregnant with Rory. So it starts out with her and Chris, and Lorelai is completely irresponsible and spoiled and . . . well, sort of slutty, but you can see that she’s trying to express herself in the only ways she can. Complete rebellion is her only option, since her parents have completely repressed her. Also, she’s this total rich kid, completely selfish and upscale, and then she runs away and has nothing. I wanted to look at that transition; I wanted to see her holding up and being the completely strong badass she is under the pressure of all that . . . reality. And of course, I wanted to see her move to Starry Hollow, meet everyone, for her to have that whole hating Luke thing that was established as pre-canon, and for young!Luke, who is poor and a really hard worker and always does what he’s told to fall completely in love with this lost, headstrong teenager with a baby who’s determined to make everything work.
History: Started December 2002. I’d forgotten about it until now, but out of the 3 GG fics, this is definitely the one I’d be most likely to continue, because I find it the most compelling. Sadly, out of all the fandoms I’ve ever been in, this is one of the few I’m least likely to return to.
Current Length: 12, 010
Links: Never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely.
Project: Second Impressions, Alias fanfic
Idea: Eric Weiss/Nadia fic. The premise was that Weiss had met Nadia while she was an agent in Argentina, years before the CIA recovers her and all the mess about her being the Messenger begins. The first half of the fic was to be Weiss and her meeting—Weiss sort of bumbley on one of his first missions, and Nadia being sexily skillful and skillfully sexy, and both of them together managing to make a Dream Team of Badassitude. The second half was to run parallel to S3, working in a Weiss/Nadia relationship to what played out for the season.
History: I started this in a rush just as S4 began, first posting December 2004 and last posting January 2005. I loved Weiss and wanted him to have hot het sex with someone who was a complete badass and not already attached to various other characters, i.e. not Sydney. I also thought S3 had sucked, but had lots of hope for Nadia and S4. My interest flagged as I watched more and more of S4 and realized it sucked even more than the rest of the show.
Current Length: I almost finished Weiss and Nadia’s first meeting. 5 chapters, 12,628; I have no idea how far away this is from completion, as I never figured out the rest of the fic. S4 sucked too much.
Link: fanfiction.net
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Fire and Ice, X-men movieverse fic
Idea: Wolverine/Rogue porn. This was to be a two part series, the first taking place in Mississippi, the second taking place in Canada. We were going to go to both Logan and Marie’s homes, explore the “coming home again” theme, find out what home and family mean, with lots of porn.
History: I began this in May of 2003. I posted almost as much as is written to the Yahoo! Mailing list Dead Dolphin Flogged Horse. I had trouble in that fandom, and left off on this partly because I felt unsupported there. I mean, also I was lazy, but I kept feeling like I was yelling down into this void; that’s the main reason I never got super productive in this fandom even though I was REALLY into it.
Current Length: 12,630 words, which is about 40%. I got most of Marie’s part in Mississippi done; I never even started the Logan in Canada part.
Links: this is posted on the Yahoo! Mailing list Dead Dolphin Flogged Horse. I can’t link to it because you can’t access stuff in there without belonging to the list.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: While You Were Sleeping rewrite
Idea: I think this movie is ridiculous for many reasons, but in particular I hate stories that hinge on a case of mistaken identity that could easily be corrected. For some reason I found it compelling and wanted to rewrite it to fix this. It was a total self-insert thing.
History: begun in January 2003. I got bored so stopped writing it.
Current Length: 10,121 words, this is probably about 10% of what the story was going to be.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Someone Like You sequel/rewrite
Idea: I think this started somewhere in the middle of the movie Someone Like You. I don’t even know what I was doing; I hated that movie and still do. I like to think I had a problem with the whole, “Jane is a feminist and this is a bad thing; all she needs to do is shack up with her womanizing room-mate!”, but my thoughts were nowhere near as coherent as that. I did like the idea of a very smart girl who looks down on certain kinds of habits falling for someone of whom she generally disapproves, though. I like the idea of discovering humanity in people whom we don’t like to think of as human—in this case, basically a frat boy. I also liked the idea of said frat boy falling for a totally nerdy dork, which of course Jane wasn’t because she was played by Ashley Judd, but she could have been. This was not self-insert, though, because I did not identify at all with Jane, I just thought she could have been interesting, I guess.
History: I wrote this in May 2003. I was in the thick of my X-men obsession, and was reading a bunch of Wolverine fic. Lots of those fans were really obsessed with Hugh Jackman, and as sometimes happens, would write little fics based on many of his characters, which I would find in the midst of oodles of Wolverine fic. I read one Someone Like You this way. For some reason my mom owned the DVD and I watched it, hated it, and wanted to fix it. I started writing this but soon lost interest in June 2003.
Current Length: 10,062 words. Probably less than 15% of what I had in mind, but I have no idea as I never really knew what was going to happen with it.
Links: I started posting this under the pen name Ilandra on fanfiction. My Sound of Music fic is still posted under that name, but I got embarrased by this fic and deleted it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Snake Woman Flannel, Gilmore Girl fanfic
Idea: omg, Gilmore Girls fanfic. This was primarily Lorelai/Luke, with some Rory/Jess talking about the Beat generation, with some strong Lorelai-Rory interactions, Luke-Rory friendship, and Luke learning to be daddy for Jess.
History: Started writing this in October 2002. I’d just fallen hard for Gilmore Girls between seasons 2 and 3, and really wanted some Lorelai/Luke shipper fic. This was begun some time during S3. Like my Alias fic, this fic began to slag when I thought GG jumped the shark.
This fic is interesting as my first that was a whole bunch of humor and snark instead of angst and drama. The fandom was interesting for me that way too. Lorelai Gilmore was a departure from my usual heroines and I think was an early precedent for my Buffy love. I used to only like nerdy girl heroes whom no one loved or noticed even though they were badasses, especially girls with intimacy issues. So, you know, plain girls like Jane Eyre or fuck ups like Rogue. But Lorelai is a total flirt, has lots of sex, everyone thinks she’s hot, and she’s not very book smart at all. Looking up pop culture references was both fun and extremely exhausting!
All that said, I don’t think I’ll ever return to this fandom. Lorelai and Rory were extremely compelling to me as characters, but the rest weren’t, even though Luke was completely my type. The plots and stories were also not my type, so I can’t see me returning to this fandom.
Current Length: 51,852 words. From what I can tell, this was almost finished—probably at around 85% currently.
Links: I posted this under the pen name Moswen on fanfic.net, then took it down when I cleared that account because my RL friend found it. I only posted 12 chapters of it even though it looks like I have about 20 written.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Memory and Desire, Harry/Draco fic
Idea: This was a Draco gets amnesia fic that starts from Draco’s POV. The amnesia is a little wonky; he remembers a different 5 years than the last 5 years everyone thinks he’s lived. In the last 5 years everyone thinks he’s lived, he’s built a relationship with Harry. In the past 5 years he thinks he’s lived, he’s had nothing to do with Harry. So Harry’s just lost his lover and everyone keeps telling Draco he’s supposed to be with him, and Draco’s freaked out.
History: I started this in early 2007, just as I was starting to get into H/D fandom (it began in November 2006, I believe). It was my first attempt at the huge epic shipper fics I usually begin with. I wrote almost all 50,000 words in a great big rush, and then sort of dropped off the way I always do. So I started posting to get my interest up, and sent it tostultiloquentia and redbrickrose, who gave me some good feedback. I gave it a rest for a good long while, then came back and reread it, and realized I hated it. I still kind of like the idea, but there are so many other things I want to do, and I would have to start this all over again, so I don’t think I’ll ever finish.
Current Length: 44,190 words. This isn’t even 20% into the story. It was a MONSTER, I'm telling you.
Links: I actually did start posting this at an H/D archive. I don’t even remember the archive now, and I believe at that site if you don’t update an unfinished work within 6 months, they delete you story. So I think it’s gone, now.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
It made me wonder how many unfinished fics I have floating around, since I’ve been doing that for even longer. So I decided to catalogue those too—not by torturing anyone by posting them all, but merely making a list to see what I had.
I’ve listed all unfinished fanfics that were over 5,000 words (and two that were under that, since I felt they were important), found either on my hard drive or places I’ve posted them. For each, I’ve listed the idea behind the fic, the history of my writing the fic, the status of the fic, and the likelihood I’ll finish. The likelihood is based on hopes, more than my actual fic history, but all the ones marked as likely I do have plans to finish, so—here’s hoping.
Here were some stats I thought were interesting:
Fandoms I have unfinished fic for: Alias, Angel, Arrows of the Queen (by Mercedes Lackey), Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Christy (by Catherine Marshall), The Dark Knight, Emma (by Jane Austen), Ever After, Gilmore Girls, Gone With the Wind, Harry Potter, North and South, Pride and Prejudice, Robin Hood (BBC), Sense and Sensibility, Someone Like You, Sound of Music, Star Trek (TOS and Reboot), While You Were Sleeping, X-Men (movieverse)
Total number of words of unfinished fic: 883,884
Number of words in posted WIPs: 204,803
Total number of WIPs: 34
Extremely Likely I’ll Finish: 5
Likely I’ll Finish: 9
Maybe I’ll Finish: 8
Unikely I’ll Finish: 3
Extremely Unlikely I’ll Finish: 9
Project: Half Sick of Shadows, North and South fanfic
Idea: big long Margaret and Thornton epic. It’s one of those crack forced marriage things, but I like making crack real!
History: Started this in March of this year. I got all the way to the epic, 20 page sex scene and then realized it didn’t really go there. After that I got stuck, and began to drift to yet another fandom. I wrote a whole lot, though, and know directly where I’m going, so I really feel a need to finish it.
Current Length: 72,402 words, about 60% done. Even thought that means nearly 50,000 words to go, I still feel like almost all the hard work is done, here.
Links: None of this has been posted.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Standby, Harry/Draco fic
Idea:This is an AU of DH, wherein Draco is disabled by the Fiendfyre.
History: Begun in August 2007, and I worked on it all the way until August 2008. This was off and on as I started and abandoned other projects, but this really highlights for me how seriously I wanted to write H/D, how hard I tried, and how many things I abandoned. The history of this one is particularly interesting, because I’d pretty much forgotten it, even though it was one of the ones I worked on the most. So, when I was going through my folders to write up this profile of it, I reread it, and I love it. I’m not sure I’ve ever enjoyed rereading something I’ve written so much. It made me so sad I haven’t continued it!
So all day I’ve been thinking about where to go with it. I had a plan for it, and now I know why I abandoned it: the plan doesn’t really work. In fact, I don’t know what would really work. The problem is that this is everything I want from an H/D fic, because it addresses so much between Harry and Draco, but it does not do a good job addressing the premise of the fic—Draco’s disability. I could and should address Draco’s disability, and yet I don’t know if it fits in the fic, which is stupid, since the whole premise is the disability.
Current Length: 22,549 words. For my previous plan for the fic, this is probably only 15%. I’m trying to think of ways now to do something different with it . . . maybe this is already half of the story I really want to tell.
Links: I’ve never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Another One Like It Tomorrow, Buffy/Angel fic
Idea: Angel repeats the same day over and over.
History: I started this in June 2005. I started it shortly after Best Souvenir, and for a while I was writing both fics simultaneously. In case it’s not obvious, I start many huge projects, which, if I did what I really wanted to with them, would be the size of a trilogy of slim novels once finished. I sort of stopped the way I always do, around August 2005.
My interest in it resurged in summer 2007. This was partly because my fannish focus in Buffyverse had shifted from B/A to A/S, and I had always meant to write some A/S into this one. So I pushed on through until I could write the slashy bits, which by the by were also very meaty dark bits. Then I figured I might as well try to finish the whole thing, and started trying to tie everything together.
I don’t think it would take me too long to make the whole thing work. I sent what I have to
chrisleeoctaves, and I remain encouraged by what she said. I still want to put it out there, because it’s the longest thing I’ve ever done, and I think it would be a good experience to finish it. Plus, I still love this fic.Current Length: 189,975. This is about 70% of the fic I was originally planning. Yes, the idea was a 250 K fic. Yes, I’m crazy. I’ve decided to eliminate some of the original plans, which makes me closer to maybe 90% done. Knowing me, this means it will still be around 250 K, which means my original would’ve been more like 400 K. But 60 K is pretty easy for me to write, and I really really really would love to finish something this big.
Links: here on fanfic.net or here up to chapter 28. The latter version is about 80,000 words, which is less than half of what I have finished.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: Man’s Best Friend, Angel fic
Idea: Angel gets a puppy.
History: This was started in May 2007. It had been cooking a long time. I had wanted to do post-NFA Angel and his team of crack detectives, and I also wanted to do a strong Angel and Spike working together fic, which showed Angel slowly learning that Spike can teach him about being human. Jgracio’s prompt was the catalyst. Once I figured out that Angel gets a puppy was a way to pull together a lot of elements that I wanted to explore, I wrote all 40,000 words relatively quickly. I was so happy with the result that I grew intimidated, and the whole thing started to seem huge, and then HP7 came out.
And interesting piece in the history of this fic—even though it’s pretty important to me and I often think about finishing it, I almost forgot to include it in this list because it doesn’t have a Word doc. It was all written directly into the LJ window with very little planning or revision, one of the only times I’ve tried to fly directly by the seat of my pants. I put it in a doc today, in hopes that one day I’ll get to it.
Current Length: 40, 445 words. This is about 30% of the fic I plan on writing.
Links: everything I have so far
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: K/S TOS epic
Idea: This starts shortly after the end of the 5 year mission. It was inspired by what the TOS K/S that is hinted at in Laneaa’s fic, Home, so it’s goddamn sad.
History: began around October 2009 and worked on it until January 2010. For some reason I never got into a groove writing it. I stopped because I wasn’t feeling it. I also have the general idea of where I want to go, but not a step-by-step idea, and the whole thing started to feel humungous and arduous. But I feel like it’s something that I haven’t read, which I want to be written.
Current Length: 14,184 words. This is about 10%, I think.
Links: never posted any of it
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Likely
Project: ST Reboot sequel epic
History: This is one of the more complicated histories, though it’s in a really short framework of time. The problem was I fell for ST really hard, and I wanted to write everything about it that could be written. I fell hardest for Kirk/Spock, but I really loved the idea of juxtaposing all the new crew against the old, and the crack crew adventure aspect. What I really wanted to do was write something like “Man’s Best Friend”—something that had Kirk and Spock at the heart of it, but was about everyone on board, and had them all dealing with all the issues from Reboot, and issues that we know they have from TOS. I started 10—count ‘em 10—different fics that were all in this vein, mostly Kirk and Spock friendship or K/S related, but some just general. One is about Archer and Amanda and another is about Gaila. I don’t even know.
As you can probably tell this project just got overwhelming. I still want to write it, desperately, but I have just no idea where to begin. There are so many characters’ stories I want to tell, so many interrelationships between them I want to see. And as for K/S—dude, I want to write the epic shipper fic. But I almost want to write the epic gen even more, and I’m torn between the two. For a long while I considered writing something that was sort of episodic, which just did the whole thing piecemeil, and was really like a series of shorts more than anything else. Still thinking about it; still don’t know what to do.
Began in June 2009, and stopped trying around August—that was when I decided to buckle down and post Girls Are Great.
Current Length: 19,483 words. This is spread out between 10 docs, none of which really connect, even though they’re all pieces of the same thing. And this shit was going to be epic. I didn’t want to think about how long, but probably with all the ideas I had, it was 400 K epic.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Shatner/Nimoy RPF epic
History: Started this December 2009 and worked on it almost exclusively that month. I’d forgotten about it until last month when I found it in my folders. I did some editing on it and some thinking about where I wanted it to go. This is a difficult fic to write, but I really began it to have some way of synthesizing all my thoughts on Shatner. I also really wanted to write it for
my_daroga, because I think that she would like it and I want to be able to talk about it with her. It’s important to me for those reasons so hopefully I’ll get back to it.Current Length: 9,852 words. This is maybe about 20% of what I wanted to write.
Links: Never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Test of Honor, Ever After fanfic
Idea: I dislike stories with a premise of mistaken identity that could easily be corrected. If Danielle had just told the truth about who she was, I could have respected her more, and I would have respected Henry more for gradually coming to care for her. As it was, a sort of hated the movie, but OTOH, I’m a total sap for Cinderella stories, especially the Pretty Woman kind where Person A knows from the beginning that Person B is a cinder girl/servant/prostitute/low life/etc. So, this is a retelling of the movie on the “what if” premise that Danielle told the truth the next time she saw Henry after freeing Maurice.
History: begun July 2004, stopped work August 2004. Despite only working on it about a month, I always planned on finishing this, and periodically I think about going back to it. I know what happens next, and it’s still interesting to me. And I still get comments from people wishing I would finish, and I’d like to do that for them.
Current Length: 21,048 words. This is about 50% done.
Links: ff.n
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Specific Obligations, Ever After fic
Idea: wedding night fluff
History: begun July 2004. This was because I thought the wedding scene was stupid, and because I wanted to show Danielle being a badass, and because I wanted porn, and because I wanted Henry discovering marks on Danielle’s back. Even though I was not the movie’s biggest fan, I was totally head over heels for the idea at one point, and I wanted to play with the aspects I enjoyed. This was a very silly fic, but it was never meant to be very long, and I feel like I could finish it with so little trouble!
Current Length: 7,276 words. This is about 70% done
Links: ff.n
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: the Vaisy/Hood/Guy/Marian one, BBC Robin Hood
Idea: My God, do I dislike this show. However, I could not help trying to pretend that Guy of Gisborne was a real person. Yes, it was because Richard Armitage was hot. But also, his character is ludicrous, and I wanted to see why he is that way. This fic is basically about everyone taunting and using Guy, and Guy being too petty and narrow and sort of dumb to see it. It’s also very much about closeted homosexuality, and some guesses about what homosexuality might have been in the 12th c, and some very severe daddy issues, family issues, home issues, and touch issues.
History: I started this last month! After several false starts in the fandom. The problem is that I don’t really know where this is going, although I know what I want it to say. For the past two weeks I just didn’t have time to work on it, and now I’m stalled. But I really hope to finish, even though I have no idea what to do next.
Current Length: 14,750 words. This is maybe a 20-30% of what I wanted it to be, although I don’t really know where I was going. The nice thing is that it sort of stands as a character study. If I really can’t think of where to go with it I’d like to tie it off and post it, as a statement sort of, regarding my fling with the show.
Links: haven’t posted any yet
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Best Souvenir, Buffy/Angel fic
Idea: Whistler never existed. Buffy meets Angel for the first time after the End of Days is over. Futurefic, alternate reality.
History: This was the first Buffyverse fic I ever started, in May 2005. I was in the habit of very long, epic shippy fics. In fact, to me, that’s all fanfiction was. There were a few short pieces, character reflections, that I appreciated, but that was not what I was coming to fanfiction for. I have no idea why this was the first idea that hit me, but I know I started writing it because I couldn’t find anyone else who’d done it, and it seemed to me a great “what if” to explore. I began it before I’d even finished watching S3.
This fic is important to me. It’s how I met
a2zmom, and through a2zmom I met lots of cool people, and it’s the first experience I had with a beta. Like most of my other stuff, it just got too big and complicated, and I lost interest. I will say though that a2zmom had one of my chapters for the longest time (!) and I was able to use that excuse for a long time about why I wasn’t updating.I had some very cool ideas for where this could go. I hope to look at those ideas and condense them in some way, so that the piece is actually manageable. But because it’s important to me, and because I know there were people who trusted me to finish it, the plan as of right now is to try.
Current Length: 60,000 words. This is one of those that will be some god awful length like 300 K if I can ever finish it.
Links: on ff.n and on lj
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Something Good, Sound of Music fic
Idea: retelling of Sound of Music from Captain Von Trapp’s POV. I love Maria/Captain Von Trapp.
History: I began this in August 2003. The absolute best thing about this fic was that through it and a fan board I met some truly awesome people, including
imnotacommittee. As with most things, I’m not sure why I stopped, around February 2004. I think I was getting into the final stretch, and had gotten what I wanted from it emotionally. I also got into Phantom of the Opera at the end of 2003, and it got hard to think about anything else.Current Length: 30,041 words. Originally this was going to take us all the way to the end of the movie and beyond, but ever since I stopped working on it I’ve had it in my head to finish it once Maria and the Captain hook up, which means I’m about . . . 70% finished?
Links: I wrote this on fanfic.net under another pseud: here
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: fic based on Christy, by Catherine Marshall
History: begun in 1991; it was a sequel to Christy with the intent to see Christy and Doctor MacNeill happily ever after. Rebooted in 1998: turned into a retelling of the novel with the shippy intent still intact, but the additional intent to make Christy a skeptic and Doctor MacNeill’s skepticism the way to go. Rebooted again in 2001; 1998 material scrapped; returned to the sequel idea, but now with much porn. Rebooted once more in 2008; 2001 material scrapped; returned to the 1998 idea of a retelling, but scrapped the religious intents. Retelling the whole novel from Doctor MacNeill’s POV, with the shippy intent intact. Yes, yes I have been writing this fic for 19 years, since I was in 3rd grade, which is why I'd like to finish it. Of course, it is by no means the same fic, but to me it's always been the same thread going through it--basically, it's about what Christy means to me, and how my relationship with it has changed as I've aged.
Current Length: 16,395 words (about 15% done)
Link: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Xander/Angel Buffyverse fic
History: I started this in April 2007. I think it was a prompt from
crazydiamondsue, or some kind of discussion. Anyway, I really wanted to do a metatastic and twisty fic about Xander/Angel parallels. There’s not really a plot to this one. It’s one of those ones that are more character study and meta than story.Current Length: 7,349. This is maybe about 60% of what I have mapped out, though what there is does require a lot of editing.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Likely
Project: Harry Potter/Draco fic
Idea: Standard Draco gets whammied by a love spell. While they’re trying to find the cure, Harry falls for Draco. The twist is, Draco’s spell makes him love Hermione.
History: This was begun in September 2007. I loved the idea, but I could never really get into the actual writing of it. The beginning seemed all wrong somehow. I came back to it in April 2009, but quickly abandoned it. If I do continue it, it won’t be the present version, because it sucks.
Current Length: 7,450 words. This was a monster epic idea. I haven’t even chipped the ice berg.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Honor and Dishonesty, Harry Draco fic
Idea: I really wanted to do a Harry/Draco fic that was about power and sex. With all Harry’s fame, power, and conviction that he has the right answers, he stands to be a very dangerous person after the war. What if he begins to realize that he likes to control people, so as a result, goes too far in the opposite direction? And what if Draco, a child who was very much abused during the war, for all his misdeeds, develops a complex where he likes to be dominated and controlled? There’s potential for a healthy relationship here: they could express their various D/s tendencies in the bedroom, thus making them more able to face the world. But I wanted Harry to be too ashamed, and Draco not to be able to ask for what he needs. I wanted it to be an exploration of what the war in HP did to these children, and an exploration of the difficulty of asking for what one needs in the bedroom, and also the difficulty of H/D in general—here are two people who never liked each other, coming to recognize the value in each other and learning to love each other. But there remain fundamental differences and a history of animosity, so that process of learning trust could be so slow.
History: I started this in April 2007 and worked on it through July. Then I started all over again with version 2.0 in January 2008. I really love the idea for this fic, but I really have no idea where to begin.
Current Length: 35,138 words for the one begun in 2008. This one begins with an unestablished relationship, whereas the one in 2007 was established. I thought I could examine Harry’s power issues before he meets Draco, and show that Draco was a stabilizing force for him, and then Draco begins to ask things of him that destabilize him. I still really don’t know where to start.
Links: never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: In Hiding, Batman fic
Idea: post The Dark Knight fic. This was supposed to be about everything that was wrong with TDK. My biggest problem with that movie was the end, with Gordon’s voice over. Gordon basically acknowledges that Batman did very bad things, and then says since he’s a hero who’s willing to do “what is needed” instead of what’s “just”. The worst part is the very strong implication that this is not only heroic—playing god, deciding what’s needing, and behaving immorally because you’ve decided you need to—it’s even more heroic than doing the “right” thing all the time.
As much as it upset me, I think it’s also what made me ship Gordon/Batman. Batman in the text is obviously fucked up, since he does do bad things, he does think he’s someone who can decide what’s needed, what’s right, wrong, who gets to suffer. What’s not acknowledged by the text is that Gordon is just as fucked up, because Gordon agrees with Batman and is willing to let him do what he does, and fucking admires Batman because of it.
So what I wanted to do is examine that fucked upness. This fic was supposed to be about Gordon falling farther and farther into darkness, following Batman down into the depths. In TDK we see Gordon behaving in a fucked up way to his family (lying to them because he needs to); in this fic he continues to do so and leaves any kind of healthy relationships farther and farther behind. At the same time as he descends, so does a Batgirl character who is the daughter of the previous commissioner, the one killed by Joker in TDK. She begins behaving like Gordon and Batman, but through her we see that they are essentially the same as the Joker. Gordon must condemn Batman to at last find the light again.
It was all paralleled with everyone being completely in the closet, too.
History: I started this in October 2008. It got really big and complicated, and the problem was, all I really wanted to do was share the meta I just shared with you. I quit because the task of the plot seemed to daunting, but as I write this now I realize that I could do a fic that is a lot of telling, and less showing, and it would do what I want it to without taking so much of my time. If I was interested in the plot, maybe showing would be worth it, but I’m not. I’m interested in redeeming myself after having written TDK porn, by writing something that highlights TDK’s problems ;o)
Current Length: 9,044
Links: First chapter. This is all of the above 9,000 words. I don’t have any more. I think that the likelihood of continuing this from here is “Unlikely”, but I think I could rewrite it from the beginning and that’s what’s getting a “Maybe”.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: insert for Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
Idea: This was to be about the Marianne/Colonel Brandon courtship, which doesn’t get any play in the book. It started with the moment in the Emma Thompson movie where Colonel Brandon says, “Give me an occupation or I shall go mad” to Eleanor, and then he goes and fetches Marianne’s mommy when Marianne is ill. It’s Colonel Brandon’s POV from there.
History: I never got past Colonel Brandon going to get Marianne’s mommy! I started it in 2001. I still kind of want to write the Marianne/Brandon courtship fic, but if I do, I’ll completely restart. So on the likelihood meter, a revamp of this premise gets a “maybe”. It’s something I’ve always wanted to write, and really care about.
Current Length: 2,600 words. This is less than 10% of the whole, but I had no idea where I was going with it.
Links: I never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Rough and Ready, Gone With The Wind AU
Idea: When Rhett leaves Scarlett to go join the war, she realizes she might be able to manipulate him. Because Scarlett kisses him and seems generally amenable to his advances, Rhett starts to think he has a chance with her, and promises he’ll come home to her when the war is over. He pulls some strings to avoid jail at the end of the war, and comes to Tara afterwards. The first scene is Rhett leaving Scarlett, and the very next scene is Rhett arriving at Tara. Meanwhile, everything else is the same—Scarlett has found her stomping grounds in ruins, everyone at Tara starving, and she’s working her fingers to the bone.
Rhett wasn’t expecting what he finds at Tara, but goes to work with sort of the same attitude he went to war, i.e., as a lark, he sort of wants to find out what it would be like to seem “noble” for a change. The main attraction of this fic for me was that everyone at Tara except Scarlett soon falls in love with Rhett. He’s a man who knows how to get things (his blockading experience was not for naught, in other words), he’s jovial and friendly when everyone else is dark and depressing, he’s big and strong and manly and all the women feel amused and protected. They’ve all been released from the strictures that required them to condemn him, and thus are able to fall into the fascination they would not have been able to admit to otherwise. Meanwhile, he’s still a dick to Scarlett, and Scarlett resents everyone fawning all over him. She feels sure he’s only being nice to everyone else to annoy her, which is mostly true.
History: I’ve been writing Gone With The Wind fic since 1993. All of them are like this: they take a specific moment from canon, pose a “what if?” and continue from there. This particular one got started in February 2005, but I’ve had the idea for this for some time.
I have a lot of problems with writing GWTW fic. The canon is extremely racist, and what’s frustrating is some fans don’t seem to realize or acknowledge that. My main interest in the canon is the Scarlett/Rhett dynamic. There are so many moments where if they would just notice what the other person is feeling, they might be happy; in some ways it seems like the quintessential “they just don’t talk to each other” romance trope. But the thing is, for them to notice or to talk or truly understand each other goes against the very essentials of who they are, and who they become over the course of the story. I almost feel they can never be together, and yet I need them to be. So, it’s fairly difficult to get them to cooperate, and how do I do so while acknowledging that Margaret Mitchell’s work itself, and the movie, are racist, the POV characters are racist, we should condemn them, and I agree with none of their views?
Anyway, this fic was so big that I got lost on it.
Current Length: 18,472 words. Nowhere near completion; this is about 10% of what I wanted to write. It’s got the initial scene where Rhett promises to return; it has Rhett returning, and a couple scenes with Rhett romancing Tara’s inhabitants.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: another GWTW fic
Idea: This one deals with that moment when Rhett gets home from England: he says he’s just there to drop off Bonnie; Scarlett tells him she’s pregnant; Rhett’s a jerk; Scarlett falls down the stairs. In the book there was all this stuff about how she missed him when she was gone and kind of wanted the baby she’s carrying. There’s also all the stuff right before he goes to England with the almost-rape. So in this fic, Scarlett decides she’s going to make Rhett fall in love with her so he won’t go away again when he returns. She’s nicer to him when he comes home; he’s less of a jerk; they don’t fight; she doesn’t fall.
One thing I liked about this fic was Rhett haranguing her about her clothes. He does it when she’s in mourning for Charles Hamilton; I’m thinking in particular of her pantelettes. I like to think he just does that all the time—he’s totally more of a fashion diva than her.
History: I forgot all about this one, too! Which is sort of amazing, since I started it in December 2009. This bug really does come around every 4 years.
Current Length: 4,000 words. I have no plan for this, so I don’t know how much more it needs. Presumably it would go on forever.
Links: never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: Empire of the Cellar, Phantom of the Opera fic
Idea: I didn’t even have an idea. I just wanted to write POTO fic. It started with the daroga and Erik facing off, and with Christine’s return. I know I was interested in a fic which had Christine realizing that her happy life with Raoul was too picture perfect and unexciting, so when he conveniently dies she goes straight to Erik. Meanwhile, Erik has actually learned something, and doesn’t actually want her any more—partly the whole Edward Cullen/Angel “she can’t live a normal life with me!”, but partly also Erik realizing that Christine is a child, and wants Erik to make her life a fairy tale adventure, instead of trying something real. As I write this I realize I totally did have a plan, and it was sort of interesting!
History: Began this in October 2003, right after I got into POTO. Abandoned in November 2003, one month later. I got obsessed with something else shortly after POTO, so never spent as much time with it as I would have otherwise. I have often thought of this fic because I would like to write SOMETHING epic in this fandom, but I really have never had an idea that just sings to me.
Current Length: 7,021 words. This is an extremely small part of the epic I’d planned on . . . maybe like 5%
Links: I actually did start posting this on ff.n. I think it was under Ilandra, but I erased it in some kind of purge or other. I don’t remember why!
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe
Project: another Gilmore Girls fanfic
History: S3 ended on a very sad Lorelai/Luke note. I believe this was a quick “fix it!” I forgot I wrote it. There’s porn. It looks done to me, actually. Maybe I should post it, but it’s hard to bring myself to care enough about it to even read it over.
Current Length: 6081.
Links: I never posted any of this
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Maybe? Since it’s practically done.
Project: sequel to X-men 2 movie
Idea: This was a huge monster epic that included all the stuff I liked from the comics and cartoon, all the ships I wanted, all the slashy subtext I wanted (that I didn’t realize was slashy at the time), and all the issues I wanted to be explored. Basically, I loved many elements from X2, but felt that the movie series was already way too bloated with characters and action sequences, and that they were never going to address what I really wanted to see, namely: Professor X/Magneto, Professor X/Moira McTaggart, Scott Summers and Logan UST, Wolverine/Rogue, Ororo/Nightcrawler, Nightcrawler and Wolverine identification and friendship, Nightcrawler and Rogue friendship, Nightcrawler and Mystique mommy issues, Rogue and Mystique mommy issues, Scott Summers/Jean Gray angst, Scott Summers and Kitty Pryde friendship, Scott Summers and Professor X identification and friendship, Scott Summers being a badass, Henry McCoy, Henry McCoy identification and friendship with other characters who are blue, Marie/Bobby dealt with in an intelligent way, Bobby and Pyro UST mirroring Wolvie and Cyclops UST, Magneto/Rogue squickiness, OMG I wanted it all.
History: Begun in May 2003. I stopped because it got so huge, and because I was not having fun in that fandom community. I always really wanted to write the fic, so in summer 2004 I came back and cleaned up some of the Wolverine and Cyclops angst and posted it as a short on fanfiction.net. Interestingly, it is all about the slashy subtext, but I refused to admit I wanted them to have angry mansex at the time.
Current Length: 16,504 words, this is less than 10% of the monster epic that was going to happen
Links: The Beehive Mind on fanfiction.net is a sort of prologue to this. I later incorporated it into the epic itself. I never posted any more of the epic
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely
Project: another Gone With The Wind one
Idea: In this one, Scarlett agrees to be Rhett’s mistress. He offered once on the porch in Atlanta shortly before things got quite so bad. One of the problems with Scarlett/Rhett is they both seem repressed and they both seem like toppy bottoms. There’s that one part where Rhett practically kind of rapes her; Scarlett seems to enjoy not only the sex in that part, but being dominated and being forced. Meanwhile Rhett was repulsed by it and hated himself for it. I think both of them would like their lovers to take control, but both see that as a weakness and so refuse to give an inch where sex (and the relationship) is concerned.
In this fic, Rhett is more dominate; he basically uses the fact that Scarlett gets turned on by submission to get her to agree to be his mistress.
History: I found this in an old file folder. It says August 2005, and there’s only one doc so I assume I wrote it all in one or two sittings. I got past the point where Scarlett agrees to be his mistress, up to the first sex scene. I barely remember writing this. When I found the doc I wasn’t even sure it was my writing (sometimes I save other people’s fanfic out of fear they’ll pull it), but it’s definitely mine!
Upon scanning over it, it’s pretty squicky. I don’t know if I realized that while writing, but I’m interested in the squickiness. I mean, the whole “rape” scene in canon is icky, and yet the circumstances are very compelling. Scarlett is raised in the 19th c, with very conservative values. Even though she herself is not moral, she still has all these ideas about sex which make me sad.
Also, I still have those problems with writing GWTW fic because the canon itself is so icky for completely different reasons.
Current Length: 12,011 words. This is probably about 10% of the story.
Links: I don’t know if I posted this or not. I know that I signed up for a GWTW thon and tried to complete my fic for it, but I have no idea whether it was this one or not, and now I don’t even remember the mailing list the thon was on. I should be able to find it, but I remember the GWTW fandom community not being my cuppa . . .
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely
Project: retelling of Arrows of the Queen by Mercedes Lackey
Idea: So, I’m a huge Talia/Dirk shipper from this series. It’s the only series I like by Mercedes Lackey, and I’m sure I like it because I read it when I was 14. I always wanted more Talia/Dirk, and hated what an ass Dirk was in book 3, and wanted him, instead of Kris, to be a part of the big psychic emotional storm in book 2. Book 2 was my favorite: I love empathy as a super power, and really wanted to see how awfully Talia and Dirk could hurt each other and how momentously they could reconcile with Talia’s whole emotional breakdown going on. So, the plan was to rewrite book 2, but in this AU, Dirk gets assigned as Talia’s Herald. They have to go on circuit together, with all their pent-up emotions. A lot of the same things happen, but you know, angstier, and with more porn.
History: I started this in 1999. In 2001 I picked it up again and typed out the whole first three chapters of the book, which remained unchanged from the published version, since Kris hasn’t been picked as Talia’s Herald until part-way in. I did tweak little bits to up the Talia/Dirk angst, to make Talia more a Mary Sue of myself, to be what I thought was poetic, and to worsen already bad writing that much more. In 2002 I gave it a reread and edited the whole damn thing, and then proceeded to sit on it. In 2003 I continued where I had left off and finally begun to post.
Current Length: 70,000 words. This is less than 30% of the way through the fic I wanted to write.
Links: I began posting this fic under the pen name “Moswen” on fanfic.net in 2003. I posted about 4 chapters, which was about half of the material, but I lost interest. Then my RL friend found me and I deleted all my fics; I didn’t care about this one so it didn’t matter to me it fell off the face of the Earth. I still have it in doc form, though.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Unlikely.
Project: Lemons and Lilac, Pride and Prejudice fanfic
Idea: This was to be a series of reminicenses about Mr. Darcy’s childhood. Basically, it’s all the moments that lead up to him being such a douche to Elizabeth Bennet, plus all the moments that make it so her refusal of him affects him the way it does. I thought that it must have been impressed on him from a very early age that he should be gentlemanly for her comments to affect him so, but that he hadn’t realized until after she’d said he wasn’t gentlemanly that he hadn’t known at that young age what a gentleman truly was. I wanted to witness his paradigm shift, I think—to have him looking back and realize what he thought was one thing was really another. I saved it as “dichotomy.doc”—I think I meant the dichotomy between what he thinks a gentleman is and what he realizes it to be.
History: Started writing this in my early days of hanging around Republic of Pemberley, so in 2001. I didn’t know where I was going with it, but I posted the first part anyway because it seemed complete to me, in a way. It was a vignette of Mr. Darcy’s relationship with his mother at a very young age. It was called “Lemon and Lilacs” because those were the scents he associated with her. Although the piece isn’t strong, I’m thinking about posting it on Archive of Our Own because it might be readable as a one-shot, and I want to preserve my fanfic history somewhere.
Current Length: 5,533 words. I don’t know how much this really is, since I didn’t know where I was going with it.
Links: I posted the first part of it at Republic of Pemberley, but they did an archive revamp and I never spoke up for it, so it got axed.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: fic based on Jane Austen’s Emma
Idea: This was a continuation of Emma from the end of the book. Emma and Mr. Knightley were in the early stage of marriage, still living with Mr. Woodhouse. It was one of those misunderstanding fics where both parties start doubting that the other loves him/her, namely because they aren’t having sex. It was going to build and build and then there would be smut. This was a style I learned from many Jane Austen writers at the time.
History: Begun in November 2001. I don’t even know why. My big JA love is S&S, and I had no idea where I was going with this fic. I read this over very recently when the 2009 Emma adaptation came out, and discovered it was ATROCIOUS.
Current Length: 10,788 words. I have no idea how much of the fic this is, as I had no idea where it was going, but I’m guessing this was only about 15% of the story arc.
Links: I posted this to the Republic of Pemberley under the pseud “Joyce Elizabeth” in 2001. They did a rehaul of their archive in 2002 and this was unfinished, so it got deleted.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: another Gilmore Girls Fanfic
Idea: This one is set when Lorelai first got pregnant with Rory. So it starts out with her and Chris, and Lorelai is completely irresponsible and spoiled and . . . well, sort of slutty, but you can see that she’s trying to express herself in the only ways she can. Complete rebellion is her only option, since her parents have completely repressed her. Also, she’s this total rich kid, completely selfish and upscale, and then she runs away and has nothing. I wanted to look at that transition; I wanted to see her holding up and being the completely strong badass she is under the pressure of all that . . . reality. And of course, I wanted to see her move to Starry Hollow, meet everyone, for her to have that whole hating Luke thing that was established as pre-canon, and for young!Luke, who is poor and a really hard worker and always does what he’s told to fall completely in love with this lost, headstrong teenager with a baby who’s determined to make everything work.
History: Started December 2002. I’d forgotten about it until now, but out of the 3 GG fics, this is definitely the one I’d be most likely to continue, because I find it the most compelling. Sadly, out of all the fandoms I’ve ever been in, this is one of the few I’m least likely to return to.
Current Length: 12, 010
Links: Never posted any of it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely.
Project: Second Impressions, Alias fanfic
Idea: Eric Weiss/Nadia fic. The premise was that Weiss had met Nadia while she was an agent in Argentina, years before the CIA recovers her and all the mess about her being the Messenger begins. The first half of the fic was to be Weiss and her meeting—Weiss sort of bumbley on one of his first missions, and Nadia being sexily skillful and skillfully sexy, and both of them together managing to make a Dream Team of Badassitude. The second half was to run parallel to S3, working in a Weiss/Nadia relationship to what played out for the season.
History: I started this in a rush just as S4 began, first posting December 2004 and last posting January 2005. I loved Weiss and wanted him to have hot het sex with someone who was a complete badass and not already attached to various other characters, i.e. not Sydney. I also thought S3 had sucked, but had lots of hope for Nadia and S4. My interest flagged as I watched more and more of S4 and realized it sucked even more than the rest of the show.
Current Length: I almost finished Weiss and Nadia’s first meeting. 5 chapters, 12,628; I have no idea how far away this is from completion, as I never figured out the rest of the fic. S4 sucked too much.
Link: fanfiction.net
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Fire and Ice, X-men movieverse fic
Idea: Wolverine/Rogue porn. This was to be a two part series, the first taking place in Mississippi, the second taking place in Canada. We were going to go to both Logan and Marie’s homes, explore the “coming home again” theme, find out what home and family mean, with lots of porn.
History: I began this in May of 2003. I posted almost as much as is written to the Yahoo! Mailing list Dead Dolphin Flogged Horse. I had trouble in that fandom, and left off on this partly because I felt unsupported there. I mean, also I was lazy, but I kept feeling like I was yelling down into this void; that’s the main reason I never got super productive in this fandom even though I was REALLY into it.
Current Length: 12,630 words, which is about 40%. I got most of Marie’s part in Mississippi done; I never even started the Logan in Canada part.
Links: this is posted on the Yahoo! Mailing list Dead Dolphin Flogged Horse. I can’t link to it because you can’t access stuff in there without belonging to the list.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: While You Were Sleeping rewrite
Idea: I think this movie is ridiculous for many reasons, but in particular I hate stories that hinge on a case of mistaken identity that could easily be corrected. For some reason I found it compelling and wanted to rewrite it to fix this. It was a total self-insert thing.
History: begun in January 2003. I got bored so stopped writing it.
Current Length: 10,121 words, this is probably about 10% of what the story was going to be.
Links: I’ve never posted any of this
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Someone Like You sequel/rewrite
Idea: I think this started somewhere in the middle of the movie Someone Like You. I don’t even know what I was doing; I hated that movie and still do. I like to think I had a problem with the whole, “Jane is a feminist and this is a bad thing; all she needs to do is shack up with her womanizing room-mate!”, but my thoughts were nowhere near as coherent as that. I did like the idea of a very smart girl who looks down on certain kinds of habits falling for someone of whom she generally disapproves, though. I like the idea of discovering humanity in people whom we don’t like to think of as human—in this case, basically a frat boy. I also liked the idea of said frat boy falling for a totally nerdy dork, which of course Jane wasn’t because she was played by Ashley Judd, but she could have been. This was not self-insert, though, because I did not identify at all with Jane, I just thought she could have been interesting, I guess.
History: I wrote this in May 2003. I was in the thick of my X-men obsession, and was reading a bunch of Wolverine fic. Lots of those fans were really obsessed with Hugh Jackman, and as sometimes happens, would write little fics based on many of his characters, which I would find in the midst of oodles of Wolverine fic. I read one Someone Like You this way. For some reason my mom owned the DVD and I watched it, hated it, and wanted to fix it. I started writing this but soon lost interest in June 2003.
Current Length: 10,062 words. Probably less than 15% of what I had in mind, but I have no idea as I never really knew what was going to happen with it.
Links: I started posting this under the pen name Ilandra on fanfiction. My Sound of Music fic is still posted under that name, but I got embarrased by this fic and deleted it.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Snake Woman Flannel, Gilmore Girl fanfic
Idea: omg, Gilmore Girls fanfic. This was primarily Lorelai/Luke, with some Rory/Jess talking about the Beat generation, with some strong Lorelai-Rory interactions, Luke-Rory friendship, and Luke learning to be daddy for Jess.
History: Started writing this in October 2002. I’d just fallen hard for Gilmore Girls between seasons 2 and 3, and really wanted some Lorelai/Luke shipper fic. This was begun some time during S3. Like my Alias fic, this fic began to slag when I thought GG jumped the shark.
This fic is interesting as my first that was a whole bunch of humor and snark instead of angst and drama. The fandom was interesting for me that way too. Lorelai Gilmore was a departure from my usual heroines and I think was an early precedent for my Buffy love. I used to only like nerdy girl heroes whom no one loved or noticed even though they were badasses, especially girls with intimacy issues. So, you know, plain girls like Jane Eyre or fuck ups like Rogue. But Lorelai is a total flirt, has lots of sex, everyone thinks she’s hot, and she’s not very book smart at all. Looking up pop culture references was both fun and extremely exhausting!
All that said, I don’t think I’ll ever return to this fandom. Lorelai and Rory were extremely compelling to me as characters, but the rest weren’t, even though Luke was completely my type. The plots and stories were also not my type, so I can’t see me returning to this fandom.
Current Length: 51,852 words. From what I can tell, this was almost finished—probably at around 85% currently.
Links: I posted this under the pen name Moswen on fanfic.net, then took it down when I cleared that account because my RL friend found it. I only posted 12 chapters of it even though it looks like I have about 20 written.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
Project: Memory and Desire, Harry/Draco fic
Idea: This was a Draco gets amnesia fic that starts from Draco’s POV. The amnesia is a little wonky; he remembers a different 5 years than the last 5 years everyone thinks he’s lived. In the last 5 years everyone thinks he’s lived, he’s built a relationship with Harry. In the past 5 years he thinks he’s lived, he’s had nothing to do with Harry. So Harry’s just lost his lover and everyone keeps telling Draco he’s supposed to be with him, and Draco’s freaked out.
History: I started this in early 2007, just as I was starting to get into H/D fandom (it began in November 2006, I believe). It was my first attempt at the huge epic shipper fics I usually begin with. I wrote almost all 50,000 words in a great big rush, and then sort of dropped off the way I always do. So I started posting to get my interest up, and sent it to
stultiloquentia and redbrickrose, who gave me some good feedback. I gave it a rest for a good long while, then came back and reread it, and realized I hated it. I still kind of like the idea, but there are so many other things I want to do, and I would have to start this all over again, so I don’t think I’ll ever finish.Current Length: 44,190 words. This isn’t even 20% into the story. It was a MONSTER, I'm telling you.
Links: I actually did start posting this at an H/D archive. I don’t even remember the archive now, and I believe at that site if you don’t update an unfinished work within 6 months, they delete you story. So I think it’s gone, now.
Likelihood I’ll Finish: Extremely Unlikely
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