BAM! in la vie de TKP

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Wow, that was really surreal.

I just got fired from my job. Like, two minutes ago, I was told, starting tomorrow, no more job. It was a PRN job which I guess means they used me on an "as needed" basis, which I guess means they can fire me with no warning? Or can you always fire someone without warning? A bunch of other people are getting shafted with Whatever Is Happening too; a bunch of the OR techs were just told they would only need to be there during actual surgery, which means they only need to be there for several hours a week, and some basically don't need to be there any more at all. But it's weird; it's confusing, and everybody except me is really sad but they're not acting that way.

I am not actually sad because this was a very temporary job that I was afraid I was going to get myself stuck in because I was too lazy to do anything about it. But now I'm going to be back in the flaily I-don't-know-what-to-do mode, the one where I know an English major can get jobs that pay, but I don't want to do anything except write, get published, be a big movie director, tango in Argentina with seraphcelene, open a bakery with my friend, be a big time editor, be a professor, study in India, start a cultural renaissance with my brother and s-i-l, live with nuns in the Alps, ride elephants in Malaysia, get a cabin in a woods somewhere and be creepy, be in a poet/author circle like the Beats or the Romantics or something, make a POTO movie with my_daroga, establish my Universal Theory Of Fiction, touch people's lives, and eat ice cream.

Comments

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

"it's a nightmare and god I hate doing it, so much."

I DID THE SAME THING.

Sometimes I think we share a brain. And then I worry about you.

I don't usually enjoy straight up poetry either, but I like stories that read like poetry. Like yours.

Here is VK's tongue. I like it too.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

same thing: so, maybe that process would be less painful with others. But you have to look for what's best for your story so it's not really a group thing. But it could be better. I want it to; I will try and think about trying and think.

brains: I do the same and then worry about you. Wait.

stories: Thanks. I do too. Like yours. Wait...

VK's tongue: just fucking needs to be sucked on already, jesus

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Yea, but other people might know of different submission resources than you do, so...

Can I suck on his tongue? Wait. I don't really want to. Uhm. Can I pay some larger handsome fellow to do it for me while I film it and show it every Christmas?

[tkp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, collective resources.

Yeah, I give you my leave, only make sure there are money shots of his collar and hip bones and the arch of his back when there's a hand at his cock and clear reception for the helpless sounds he makes while he's getting manhandled, kthx.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Hunh. That's what a heart attack feels like.