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What's up, darling?

I'm just--not going to get as much time to myself this summer as I thought I would, due to family issues. I was going to use that time to jump-start my attempts at original writing again, which have been difficult the past sixth months due to other family issues. It's hardly of much import; I just feel like stomping about like a spoiled child.

Well then, feel free to stomp.

I'll be over here, offering cocoa and moon pies for when you're done.

OH YAY MOON PIES MMM. How are you? I've missed you.

I'm GOOD, actually!! For a change. Hee.

I can't remember when I talked to you last- Maze got his social security, so we have paid off bills, bought me a car that actually runs, and booked a long weekend away in August. Also, he now gets paid monthly to sit at home. Nice gig if you can get it. Well, minus the crippling pain, but hey. We can now also buy him more acupuncture and massage, the stuff not covered by insurance that actually works for him.

I'm writing a four-shot of incest fic for the Lynnvitational, and Fod is writing shmoopy Sponnor.

I have a savings account for the first time in almost 17 years.

Oh! And I bought a new halter top dress. It makes my boobs look AWESOME.

*hands you two moon pie*

Oh Kita how awesome! That actually makes me feel so much less like stomping. I'd seen your post about the social security stuff as I was zooming around trying to get caught up, didn't see about the car. That's great. Plus that'll you'll get a much deserved vacation. That's better than great. And savings means more vacation in the future. Or sending your kid to school. Whichever. HEE. Best wishes to Maze, too.

Dude, tell me about the halter top dress, especially about your boobs. I bought one this spring, which freaked me out because a) I don't buy dresses, b) I've never owned a sleeveless dress, or one this low cut, or one this short (just above the knees which is SCANDALOUS on me, and c) it's blue. But I had to get it because it looked really hot on me or I thought it did which is very surprising. The problem is I tired it on with a bra. And you're supposed to be bra-less and it makes me boobies sad. I'm thinking about trying to sew cups in there; those stick-on ones do NOT work.

YAY BOOBIES.

DID know about the incest, for which I am still happy, didn't know about the Sponnor, YAYAYAYAY Fod!

Two words: Strapless Bra. Changes your life, it does.

BOOBIES. My dress is black and white, silk, two layers, art deco-y flowers. SO HOT OMG. I almost chickened out of wearing it to the event I bought it for (a wedding, this past w/end) but I got the strapless and I wore it and OMG BOOBIES.

I bet you look saucy in blue!!! KNEES AND BOOBIES OMGYAY.

Shmoopy Sponnor, J. Shmoopy Sponnor. Spike might in fact call him pup. Once.

I have a strapless (though I've never needed it). This dress is...um, too low in front for a bra.

My dress is black and white, silk, two layers, art deco-y flowers.

Oh awesome! That sounds so very classic and flattering. I'm glad you had the bravery to wear it. I've worn mine ONCE and then I looked down at my chest and had to leave and change. Gah. Once I get the bra thing figured out though I *will* wear it.

Spike might in fact call him pup.

Oh. That--that--is making me feel strange. i have to see it.

"i have to see it"

G-d, I know. Me too. Also, there is sleepy sex. This may be another BPK of mine.

There are bras that are cut low, meant to be worn under those kinds of dresses. You can get a personal fitting/consultation at any decent dept. store. This has been a LIFESAVER for me. Who knew I wore the wrong bra size for half my life? Did you know that MOST women are in the wrong bra size?? Crazy.

I like sleepy sex but it is not a bpk for me. I don't know what kind of music you listen to, but there's a bjork song about sleepy sex that I've always thought was awesome.

Oh! I looked at a bra store but I didn't see anything like that. I should've asked! The last time I got fitted they kept getting the wrong cup size. I mean, the woman looked at my chest, looked at what her tape measure and chart or whatever said my cup size should be, and kept muttering, "that's not right!" It was weird. Particularly since being touched by a stranger even if they try really hard not to actually grope you is really torturous for me. I don't like to be touched a lot of the time. I'm not even particularly good at hugging.

But when it comes to that--I'll bet that many women are too embarrassed which is why they're all wearing the wrong bras which isn't surprising but IS depressing. Jeez.

Bjork! Oh my sister LOVES her. I think she sounds like a dolphin. *g*

I bet embarassment is totally the reason. I'm not much into being groped by random strangers, myself, although I have found that since childbirth, my modesty factor is waaaay lower. Nothing like having people stick their arms up your ladyparts all the way up to their elbows for completely erasing any sense of shame one may have had.

I think it just might be Sponnor itself that's my BPK these days. Probably because it's hard to find.

She takes some getting used to.

HEE. I can see that.

Well, and mostly it seems like the people writing it are good writers. Bad writers don't seem interested in it which is a definite plus. I quite like it, but I can't say it affects me as much as fics with Angel in them.

Hm. I guess to me, all Sponnor fics have Angel in them. In that absent third kind of way, if nothing else. S'probably why it's the only pairing that gets me off without Angel having to actually be in the scene.

Yes you are right however I require explicit Angel. Or maybe that's not it. I just have yet to spend late nights thinking of Sponnor; I'm not sure why.

Well, for me it also don't hurt that it's Kartheiser and Marsters.

JM/VK teh hotness. Maybe it's more easy on my brain than Sponnor because I don't feel like there's a HOLE there.

:(

I send you a million hugs and a squillion good wishes. Feel better soon, honey. *luffs*

*outpouring of strong affection* I luff you back.

Dear tkp, you are nerdy and witty and sarcastic and whiny. You are strong people and you are brave people, you are intrepid and unsung, you are delightful and draining and devious. You comfort, amuse, engage, educate, entertain me. You're mad and you're bad and you make me glad. You rock.

Also.

Hee. You, in particular, rock. You rocketh muchly.

I saw that one. It does induce a smile! The cocks with hearts is like so much bad fanfic, it's brilliant.

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

I'm sorry you're depressed. Because everything you said about your flist applies to you, too, and you are muchly admired and loved.

(((((((((((HUGS BACK, so many))))))))

Thanks so much.

Dude, you sent me your D/Hr fic the day before my laptop got stolen, so then I got all distracted and now I haven't read it. I saved the email though and I'm going to, so don't think it's weird if you get my freakishly overdue reactions in your inbox in a couple weeks!

Joy!!!!!

I hmmmm, I want to like rain exclamation points on you now. That and small candy hearts with lewd messages. <3

Femme!!!!

Raining exclamation points would be POINTY.

You guys should all live right next door to me. So I can go out to see you whenever I want and then gossip about how wrong and freaky you are when I get inside.

SIGH. Living near more fangirls would be AWESOME.

gossip about how wrong and freaky you are when I get inside.

You would not!

You're right. I'd totally tell you you were wrong and freaky to your face.

Aw, I'm so sorry you're down. *hugs*

I'm wishing you much happiness and pie. And thank you for the lovely thoughts about your flist - I can assure you we all think the same wonderful things about you!

Hee, thank you so much. I find I come here when I'm unhappy and don't want to have to think about stuff.

You definitely rock. <3333

::hugs::

All the same to you, too. What you said.

Off topic, I keep seeing different people with identical icons commenting here! It's oddly disorienting.

Heh. Thank ya, hon.

Well, I see 'em all the time, so not so much. There are a few people on my flist who only rotate through a couple, so basically ALL of those I associate with them, so when I see them elsewhere it's disorienting.

This is why I am one-icon lady, because I get disoriented seeing MYSELF use anything else. But since the strikeout deal I've been using this one as a reminder to write a letter to 6A and I haven't done it yet so I MISS my normal icon.

*hugshugshugs*

I don't have much to offer, but I *did* write Happily Ever After S/B/A if that might spread a little sunshine?

Awww, I hope that the wonderful potential you see in your f-list, which is of course reflected in you, can cheer you up a bit too. ::many hugs::

I do! I can and I will and I do! I just needed to RAGE.

Also, hey! I feel like I haven't talked to ya in forever! How've you been?

Thanks for asking, I've been ok-ish. And you're right it's been close enough to forever. But it's nice to be back. The f-list can sure rock the body that rocks the party, as you say :)

Cheer up and what's a moon pie? (:

It's this graham crackery type stuff cookies with marshmellow in between and the whole thing is covered with chocolate. It's been forever since I had them, but when I was little I crossed out the "N" and made them "moo pies" but then my brother said they were cow pies which of course turned me off of them. YAY.

I don't know you all that well yet, tkp, but your fic has been thrilling so far. You're the one who rocks...

Thanks you muchly. Your comments rock so far! Thanks for being so friendly :o)

::squishes and hugs::

((hugs back!)) also *gets your face painted at the fair*

Hi, hon. I hate that too when I think I'm going to have time to do something, and then it all blows up in my face. Especially when it's something that I really want to do. It's like when I got sick in May, and missed our miniscule opera theater season here (blink and it's gone.) It sucks.

I hope you can find a little time in between all your responsibilities to get some writing done. :hug:

Yeah, dude, you were like at death's door. I'm glad you're better now, but sorry you missed the season! That's too bad :o(

Looks like I overreacted, anyway; I might actually be getting more time than I thought I would. My family is shifty and confusing; they say they need me to go somewhere; then they say they don't; then they say they do and it'll be twice as long I'm needed . . . And of course I owe them everything so there's no way I can put my foot down. BUT anyway, thanks so so muck for your words of comfort!

::sends hugs, offers chocolate, does Angel's party-boogie-of-doom to make you laugh::

Also, you are an extremely talented writer, and I understand the frustration and desire to stomp when you're not getting to do it as much as you'd like. LJ is a good place for stomping.

HEE. Party boogie of doom does make me smile!

And thank you so much. The thing is, I do have time to write so I shouldn't complain. I have more time than most people and my family supports me since I can't seem to get my own shit together. But it's difficult for me to concentrate on anything I want to take very seriously when there's so much going ON, and I thought I was going to be able to get away from all that. Now it looks like maybe I might, so I'm all cheery again. But anyway, mostly what I end up writing when I feel there's so much around to distract me is fanfic, or bits of things I'll never finish, or...other stuff I'll never finish. So I *am* writing and it's my own fault I'm not using the time I do have; I just...yeah, stomping!

Thank you for letting me rant about it. (((huggles!))

*snugs*

You're all awesome and warm. :o)

Dude, you know what?

Our names, together, like if we were slashbuddies or something, would be J/K. This amuses me, and should you, too.

I know what you mean, though, about changes in plans. I don't need things to be set in stone, but sometimes when something I expect gets turned around, I get upset. Because it's not so much that the thing that's going to happen is SO terrible, it's that I was in a totally different place, mentally.

You should come visit, like, now, because tomorrow night is OMWF singalong in Seattle! And

femmenerd's friend

kittyzams (whom I've never met) is meeting me there! It will be awesome.

We should chat!