BAM! in la vie de TKP

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Wow, that was really surreal.

I just got fired from my job. Like, two minutes ago, I was told, starting tomorrow, no more job. It was a PRN job which I guess means they used me on an "as needed" basis, which I guess means they can fire me with no warning? Or can you always fire someone without warning? A bunch of other people are getting shafted with Whatever Is Happening too; a bunch of the OR techs were just told they would only need to be there during actual surgery, which means they only need to be there for several hours a week, and some basically don't need to be there any more at all. But it's weird; it's confusing, and everybody except me is really sad but they're not acting that way.

I am not actually sad because this was a very temporary job that I was afraid I was going to get myself stuck in because I was too lazy to do anything about it. But now I'm going to be back in the flaily I-don't-know-what-to-do mode, the one where I know an English major can get jobs that pay, but I don't want to do anything except write, get published, be a big movie director, tango in Argentina with seraphcelene, open a bakery with my friend, be a big time editor, be a professor, study in India, start a cultural renaissance with my brother and s-i-l, live with nuns in the Alps, ride elephants in Malaysia, get a cabin in a woods somewhere and be creepy, be in a poet/author circle like the Beats or the Romantics or something, make a POTO movie with my_daroga, establish my Universal Theory Of Fiction, touch people's lives, and eat ice cream.

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[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Woah.

Wow.

*hugs*

Go write. Maybe you and I can do a whole thing where we encourage one another to actually send shit in to get published.

*hugs some more*

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I know! It's crazy.

I was thinking about that a bit ago, actually. What's weird is I know I would write if there were no one but me left on the planet. But I do better with encouragement, and I like encouraging. I want to work something out with those on my flist whose writing I respect and who I know are interested in getting published to...well, encourage. In school I was assigned to write short stories. God, I have no humility whatsoever, but I was so fucking kickass at it.

And thank you. (((hugs back)))

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Dude, count me in.

Seriously if you ever come up with a FL encouragement plan, I want a subscription.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

hee! encouragement plan. Awesome. Sue said something a while back that made me think that a few of us could do...something, but while I've thought on it many times since, I don't really know what the...something is. I don't know if people would actually want to share pieces, or talk about their pieces (e.g. whaddya think about prose poetry; I'm giving it a try) or share experiences (e.g. I just sent this story in, hold my hand) or share info (e.g. hey so and so X magazine/publisher/etc might like the story you talked about Y) and whether there should be some kinda way to really keep it going and alive but not feel like it's pressure.

In other news I find your new lj title scary.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

LOL! Sorry! I thought of you when I took it. But you know, it's all in the name of badfic mockage! Not personal! Hee.

I would love to have a small group of people to do ALL those things with. So like, if a few didn't feel like participating, maybe the rest would, and at different times, others would, etc.? Hell, just having someone to ask "where should I send such and such" would be a help for me.

Prose poetry is pretty much what you already write. It's why I like your stuff so well.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

Bahahah! no! I love it!

One would hope that with a small group who's really into it, people would participate as their time and inclinations allowed. But it's easy to think that and then stand around and do nothing.

The "where should I send such and such" turned out for me to be a much bigger question than I thought at first. I bought a book that is just a list of publications and publishers you can send stories/books/poetry/etc to, but trying to figure out which ones in there suit me, and which would take me--and then whether it is even really reasonable to just find a publication on a list and send a story to them--it's a nightmare and god I hate doing it, so much.

Thanks. I don't really like what a lot of people market as prose poetry because it is too poetic for me and I have difficulty with poetry.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

"it's a nightmare and god I hate doing it, so much."

I DID THE SAME THING.

Sometimes I think we share a brain. And then I worry about you.

I don't usually enjoy straight up poetry either, but I like stories that read like poetry. Like yours.

Here is VK's tongue. I like it too.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

same thing: so, maybe that process would be less painful with others. But you have to look for what's best for your story so it's not really a group thing. But it could be better. I want it to; I will try and think about trying and think.

brains: I do the same and then worry about you. Wait.

stories: Thanks. I do too. Like yours. Wait...

VK's tongue: just fucking needs to be sucked on already, jesus

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Yea, but other people might know of different submission resources than you do, so...

Can I suck on his tongue? Wait. I don't really want to. Uhm. Can I pay some larger handsome fellow to do it for me while I film it and show it every Christmas?

[tkp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, collective resources.

Yeah, I give you my leave, only make sure there are money shots of his collar and hip bones and the arch of his back when there's a hand at his cock and clear reception for the helpless sounds he makes while he's getting manhandled, kthx.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Hunh. That's what a heart attack feels like.