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~~ADMIN NOTE: This will be my last post. All other posts will be on my InsaneJournal. You can add my ij feed to your lj here.~~ --The Quitter

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So, I wrote Now The Shining Sun Is Up for

hd_holidays. It's a Harry/Draco story about dealing with the long-reaching social and political effects of war.

Although it really needs so much more work, I'm kind of happy with the story. It could've been so much better, really shiny, but as it is it got across the gut of what I really wanted to get across, I think. And that was why I entered the ficathon. You know I hate ficathons and only enter them because I love Lynne and Chrislee. But I've been trying to write H/D for a whole year now, and while I have millions of pieces of things on my comp, I've yet to really spit out one whole thing. For this ficathon I started about five different stories, 30,000 wasted words all told. It was in the last two days I wrote this one, and then the mods of the fest were nice enough to let me send in my second draft (which took another week or so to write, on top of moving) to post. The final draft would've been tighter, with excess talk cut out, and a couple vital moments added--but if I'd've had the time, I wouldn't rewrite this fic, just polish it up a bit. In TKPspeak, that means I'm a bit proud of it.

In other news, it was bizarre being a part of a fest with anonymous gifts, much less in a fandom I'd never participated in. Since no one in H/D fandom knows who I am anyway, I thought it wouldn't make much difference if I was anonymous or not, and that the fest would be a good way to get the story out there without having to wave my arms and say, "look at me!" Makes it weird, though, when people think they know who wrote it. Especially if they think it was

mistful, which was flattering and also weird and also worrisome (i.e. I'm inspired by her writing! But am I "inspired" too much?). At any rate, it was pleasing and surprising the way people responded. It wasn't a mega hit or anything, but I don't really think the unpolished nature of the fic merits that. But there were people with really thoughtful comments who really appreciated what I tried to do with the story, which warms the cockles of my heart. (Not the mussels of my heart, though. Or even muscles; that's so purely clinical.) Since I've never participated in a fest like this before, and since I know no one in the fandom, it was weird to watch the comments trickle in--I kept wondering where they were coming from and who they were. Kind of like when I wrote Oroboros, the commenting on which was a surreal experience completely. In other words, I'm glad I did it, even if I've been stressing pretty much four months over it.

So, all five of you who read H/D, pls to be letting me know what you think, if you're so inclined as to read. I'll be reposting it on IJ in the next few days.

Next up is

anelith's H/D, which I <3 so much I need to stop talking about it and just finish it!

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I've commented maybe once or twice on this journal, but usually I'm in far too much fangirlish awe to approach. It's silly, I know. I'm working on it. So I wouldn't expect you to remember me.

Friending me? Oh well, yay, I'm flattered. I don't think it will actually do anything. I haven't figured out how to use lj yet, so there's not much on my journal. And I haven't really felt like making an effort to try, what with fandom in a flux about where to go. And as I understand it you're leaving as well.

Alas fandom I wish to crawl out of my lurkery hole and join the party, but nobody can agree on a venue. 'Tis sad.

But thankyou for the compliment on my taste. I'm glad you think so. ;)

I just so totally identify with being new and wanting to participate and not knowing anyone. I was in various fandoms for 5 years before I found lj and really got to know people here, and it sucked knowing that there were all these people talking about stuff I was interested in and doing cool stuff with it, and not knowing a way to get "on the inside" as it were.

I'm still holding out with that hope that fandom will en masse move to its own home one day, but for now, it still seems to me that most people are sticking with lj. If you do want to get into things, that's where I'd start.

Of course, if you want to keep with the lurking, you shouldn't feel compelled to participate. I'm speaking as someone who REALLY REALLY wanted to be into things, and just didn't know how, so I might be offering advice from a different perspective than you're coming from.

The important thing is to have fun :o)

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