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Time in the world (to talk)
I’m talkative. When I was little, my Dad gave us a word per week in the summer. They ended up each pertaining to qualities about us. My oldest brother got something that meant glum and moody. All my next oldest brother’s were words such as, “erudite”. (My mom begged for a word; he only gave her one: callipygous.) Mine for the summer were these: loquacious, verbose, garrulous, and gesticulate (I talked even when my mouth wasn’t moving).
Whenever I get on AIM, or any chatting device, I end up talking to people I haven’t talked to in years. This is a many splendid thing, except that it takes approximately nine hours, and by the time all the conversation windows get clicked closed, I’m still not done:
1) With the dishes
2) With my writing
3) With my laundry
4) Watching Important Things, such as James Harriot and 80s baseball anime
5) Talking to friends I haven’t talked to in years.
The end result? I do not get on AIM. I do not chat. I do not pass go.
Most things end up being like this with me. The other day at movie night, I had all sorts of thoughts about the movie! But lots of people were talking, and my thoughts were long, and complicated, and very involved, and mostly for the ears of
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my_daroga and Mr. Daroga. The point is though, I ended up not saying anything, because I knew it would take too long, and that the kind of discussion I wanted would not result from it.I do this with lj. I have a million things I could post about, but don’t, because it will take too long. I feel like I’m wasting time; I feel in the end I still won’t say what I mean anyway; I feel people won’t read it because it’s too long; I won’t have time for the discussion because it will be too involved, etc etc. It’s part of my weird lj neurosis, which I believe I have discussed elsewhere.
It makes me sad. LJ is particularly cool because I think you can have the involved conversations I want to have on it. The formatting is fine for long discussion, plus the people here are thoughtful, and when they’re not, I don’t have to know that they didn’t listen to me. I don’t have to see blank faces or people trying to politely disengage from the conversation; I just get people not commenting. Which is fine! Furthermore all this gets recorded, both my insanely long thoughts and people’s insanely long thoughts back. It is perfect for me in so many ways!
Anyway, what I’ve decided to do is try to spend 15 minutes a day making a post. I spent 15 minutes on this one, and even though it’s stressing me out to cut it off here, maybe it will inspire me to keep going, and finally get some thoughts out. Some of it is writing, some fanfic, lots of thoughts about writing, and life in general. It may turn out to be fairly boring, but maybe I won’t feel such regret about having this wonderful tool and not using it appropriately.
. . . Watch me only do the 15 minute thing until tomorrow. I guess it’s worth the effort.
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!!!
Tell me more!
I used to be the same way, worrying that it was an indulgence to post or talk about myself rather than writing or doing things that need to get done or Watching Important Things, but I've gotten into the habit of emailing a friend every day and just blah blahing for like 5 pages and it's such a great release.
Anyway, you seem like an intelligent person and I'd love to read your thoughts on fanfic, writing and life in general. :))
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It's called "Touch". It's one of the best things ever. It was never released in America, and the version we are watching is subtitled by fans. I don't actually like baseball (I can see from your icon you might have a thing for it). I find it quite dull. But this makes me love it, and everything associated with it, times a million. It's about these twin boys; one is a slacker and one is the golden boy. The thing is, slacker!boy is better at everything, but won't try, for various reasons all gradually revealed and never expressed. Meanwhile, golden boy works his ass off (mostly at baseball, but everything else, too) in order to be even half as good as his brother. Then there's this girl they grew up with that they both want. Who is the baseball manager! And she always studies with golden boy and teases slacker boy about being lazy. And there's all this unspoken TENSION. And then the plot twist in ep 25 or so which changes the whole thing in a very daring, unexpected way. OMG.
If you're interested I'll find out more about where you can dl it. I do highly recommend it.
I've gotten into the habit of emailing a friend every day and just blah blahing for like 5 pages and it's such a great release.
What a great idea!
I don't have much to say about me or what I am doing. Most of the things I'm interested in tend to be very abstract. Some of my friends would get a kick out of this, I guess, but most (except for the ones I live with!) would be like, "Why is Joy emailing me about abstract moral conundrums, or patterns of social behavior?" Which is why lj is great, because people do not find it weird here that I actually have very few things to say about Real Life!
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Which is why lj is great, because people do not find it weird here that I actually have very few things to say about Real Life!
Yes! My posts about RL are usually two line observations about what someone just said at work. :)