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Hello everyone. I haven't been on my journal in a while. I really miss you guys.
Lately I have: started yet another job, felt unwilling or unable to clean my room and keep up with laundry, failed at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
grazieprego, celebrated the release of Sarah Rees Brennen's book, The Demon's Lexicon here with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sarahtales, orexisbella and all the cool marmalade fish (go read it; it's really good!). I have gained a new niece, not visited my cousin as much as I would like, angsted about Dreamwidth and how I'd like to move there but it seems like too much work. I have conceived a brilliant Buffyverse story, which awesomeness overwhelmed me for precisely 1.7 days, at which point I realized lynnenne had already written it and called it Vicarious. I have interviewed for new jobs and started learning about the stars, and become so addicted to caffeine that when I didn't have it this morning I pretty much felt the worst I've ever felt. I have failed to research making a website or ask about making one for marmalade_fish, failed to email seraphcelene whom I really miss, failed to stay in contact with lots of people who are important to me, but happily reconnected with some other people (like my best friends in Houston and my old room mate), started playing D&D, and discovered that even in the company of geeks I'm still geekier, because getting drunk off my ass and clubbing just never sounds that fun to me.
But mostly, it's been Star Trek. I have mainlined the Original Series, I have spent most evenings perusing the kink meme (st_xi_kink), I have posted over 7 prompts and filled 3, started filling approximately 5 more, have started at least 7 other fics besides those, and have written 25,000 words in the fandom without finishing any of it. I have read Nimoy's biography I Am Spock, listened to Shatner's albun Has Been at least three dozen times, obsessed for hours and hours with my_daroga, fallen in love with Bill Shatner, fallen in love with Shatner/Nimoy, but not quite as much as Kirk/Spock. I've posted anonymously for the first time in my life because my fanfiction confused me and my requests sort of overwhelmed me, and I've been so grateful that my_daroga feels similar to me because it has made me feel less weird, and because she's so clever and talented and insightful, and because I love her.
I have been waiting without much patience for the next chapter of this story, I have roleplayed ST characters in three different venues, I have read published and unpublished 70s K/S fanfiction, I've written and not posted probably about 5K worth of meta about Shatner, Kirk/Spock, and the role of women in ST and media. I've talked more about sex and probably more openly than I ever have in my life, I've fallen in love with space and sci fi, I appear to have lost all shame, and I signed up for a big bang. I've fallen in love with genderbending and tentacle sex, and last Saturdaymy_daroga, Mr. Daroga, and I drove all the way down to Portland to see the episode "Amok Time" performed live in a park by some dudes with bad costumes. I have actually not read that much ST fanfiction, because I've been too consumed by the kink meme, and how much there is, and confused about what is going on in ST fandom and where it is going on, and how to find any of it. I do not think I've figured in the fandom at all, I have met very few people in it, I've felt unable to post any of my fic or meta, and feel like I'm dancing the periphery of something I'd really like to be a part of, but feel too overwhelmed or self-conscious to really join.
I've felt overwhelming confusion about how to express all this on my livejournal, because despite the fact that long ago I stopped living and breathing Buffyverse, I still feel that's where I made most my friends, and I feel like talking about ST the way I did about BtVS would bore most people here, but going and meeting new people and trying to get them interested in me and being interested in them feels really intimidating because I'm shy in some ways, and anyway I still want to have things to say to the awesome people I already know here. But my flist is really overwhelming, and I don't know what's going on with anyone, and I really miss you all!
So, that's me. What's up with you? *puts chin in hands, ready to listen*
Lately I have: started yet another job, felt unwilling or unable to clean my room and keep up with laundry, failed at
grazieprego, celebrated the release of Sarah Rees Brennen's book, The Demon's Lexicon here with sarahtales, orexisbella and all the cool marmalade fish (go read it; it's really good!). I have gained a new niece, not visited my cousin as much as I would like, angsted about Dreamwidth and how I'd like to move there but it seems like too much work. I have conceived a brilliant Buffyverse story, which awesomeness overwhelmed me for precisely 1.7 days, at which point I realized lynnenne had already written it and called it Vicarious. I have interviewed for new jobs and started learning about the stars, and become so addicted to caffeine that when I didn't have it this morning I pretty much felt the worst I've ever felt. I have failed to research making a website or ask about making one for marmalade_fish, failed to email seraphcelene whom I really miss, failed to stay in contact with lots of people who are important to me, but happily reconnected with some other people (like my best friends in Houston and my old room mate), started playing D&D, and discovered that even in the company of geeks I'm still geekier, because getting drunk off my ass and clubbing just never sounds that fun to me.But mostly, it's been Star Trek. I have mainlined the Original Series, I have spent most evenings perusing the kink meme (
st_xi_kink), I have posted over 7 prompts and filled 3, started filling approximately 5 more, have started at least 7 other fics besides those, and have written 25,000 words in the fandom without finishing any of it. I have read Nimoy's biography I Am Spock, listened to Shatner's albun Has Been at least three dozen times, obsessed for hours and hours with my_daroga, fallen in love with Bill Shatner, fallen in love with Shatner/Nimoy, but not quite as much as Kirk/Spock. I've posted anonymously for the first time in my life because my fanfiction confused me and my requests sort of overwhelmed me, and I've been so grateful that my_daroga feels similar to me because it has made me feel less weird, and because she's so clever and talented and insightful, and because I love her.I have been waiting without much patience for the next chapter of this story, I have roleplayed ST characters in three different venues, I have read published and unpublished 70s K/S fanfiction, I've written and not posted probably about 5K worth of meta about Shatner, Kirk/Spock, and the role of women in ST and media. I've talked more about sex and probably more openly than I ever have in my life, I've fallen in love with space and sci fi, I appear to have lost all shame, and I signed up for a big bang. I've fallen in love with genderbending and tentacle sex, and last Saturday
my_daroga, Mr. Daroga, and I drove all the way down to Portland to see the episode "Amok Time" performed live in a park by some dudes with bad costumes. I have actually not read that much ST fanfiction, because I've been too consumed by the kink meme, and how much there is, and confused about what is going on in ST fandom and where it is going on, and how to find any of it. I do not think I've figured in the fandom at all, I have met very few people in it, I've felt unable to post any of my fic or meta, and feel like I'm dancing the periphery of something I'd really like to be a part of, but feel too overwhelmed or self-conscious to really join.I've felt overwhelming confusion about how to express all this on my livejournal, because despite the fact that long ago I stopped living and breathing Buffyverse, I still feel that's where I made most my friends, and I feel like talking about ST the way I did about BtVS would bore most people here, but going and meeting new people and trying to get them interested in me and being interested in them feels really intimidating because I'm shy in some ways, and anyway I still want to have things to say to the awesome people I already know here. But my flist is really overwhelming, and I don't know what's going on with anyone, and I really miss you all!
So, that's me. What's up with you? *puts chin in hands, ready to listen*
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Fanlore is awesome, though probably too overwhelming for me. I am overwhelmed by many things, as you can see. Part of my problem is that I'm slow. Part of the reason for that, and another problem of mine, is that I'm very thorough. I do everything so thoroughly I never want to do anything.
Don't think I've seen either of those vids . . .
You should give me the SG AU link. I can't stand another fandom right now! But some day I would like to read it. Maybe some day I'll even watch Stargate. I do love space! I've always liked sci fi, but in general loved fantasy more (well, depends on how you define the genres. One author said one was trees and one was rivets, I'm talking that definition). Now I'm starting to have trouble understanding why I ever felt that way.
But I'm even getting into the technical aspects. MY NEW JOB IS AS A PLANETARIAN. I can go outside and find the Summer Triangle, and Vega, and Sagittarius. And I can't stop thinking . . . one day we're gonna DO THIS THING. By which I mean space. Also, I like the word space. I wrote a fic where Kirk was a Mary Kay SPACE STYLIST. It was for a joke, because he had to lend Spock his eyeshadow and tell him the eyeliner was only for when one of them was evil. Oh, Kirk, and his evil eyeliner. I'm getting distracted.
What, I love Obama with unicorns. Someone did Chekov with a unicorn--you see my trek problem, how I can't really think about other things. Now I need to go see the xkcd comic. Cabbages are awesome!
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OMG, you need to see those vids. Especially the -- no, both of them. Seriously. *rummages* Here and here.
You should give me the SG AU link. I can't stand another fandom right
now! But some day I would like to read it. Maybe some day I'll even watch
Stargate. I do love space! I've always liked sci fi, but in general loved
fantasy more (well, depends on how you define the genres. One author said
one was trees and one was rivets, I'm talking that definition). Now I'm
starting to have trouble understanding why I ever felt that way.
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Ha ha, I love that summary of fantasy vs. scifi. I used to be all about fantasy, too, but these days I'm on a huge scifi kick. Pro authors and tv and everything available.
But I'm even getting into the technical aspects. MY NEW JOB IS AS A
PLANETARIAN.
That is so cool. Go watch that vid, okay?
But first point me at Kirk in eyeliner.
Why yes, I am a pushy person. *bg*
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And the other one just captured all of my recent feelings so well.
I'm up watching these things because my uterus is hurting me too much to sleep, which is why I'm probably really emotional. But god, I sort of love everything in the world right now. So damn much.
Thanks a million, hon.
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