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This actually has nothing to do with the recent drama.
I have a confession to make. I'm a genius. But I'm really tragically stupid also.
-how to put on a header. And why everyone can figure it out but me.
-what a DDoS attack is. Looked it up on Wikipedia. Still really don't understand.
-where everyone gets the equipment to do all the icons and everything they do. Seems to me that stuff costs a fortune.
-how to write short fanfic.
-who Rodney is.
-Henry Jenkins.
-GIP.
-how NOT to hotlink some images. I can do it if the image is in a format Photobucket will upload, otherwise I don't understand.
-how people keep up with their flists.
-how people keep up with stuff like which new cat macro is funniest.
-how anyone keeps up with anything.
-why
seraphcelene can't be here RIGHT NOW, I dunno, making pie with me.
-how people find out people are talking about them when said people are not talking to them. It's not that I don't like gossip. It's that I don't understand it. I literally seem to have trouble paying attention to anything not aimed straight at me with a missile launcher.
-why I like Harry/Draco.
-flangst.
-how people not being able to post really isn't connected to the Great Strikethrough.
-how to play most online videos, or dl the equipment.
-birthdays.
-why I didn't find a plane ticket to NYC for an earlier day so I could watch DB with
a2zmom.
-Spike.
-betas.
-most emoticons.
-who Jo is.
-what Due South is.
In other news, The Sound of Music in Sparta. (link courtesy
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I have a confession to make. I'm a genius. But I'm really tragically stupid also.
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-why I like Harry/Draco.
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-how to play most online videos, or dl the equipment.
-birthdays.
-why I didn't find a plane ticket to NYC for an earlier day so I could watch DB with
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-betas.
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In other news, The Sound of Music in Sparta. (link courtesy
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*tickles you*
I do not understand flangst, either.
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SMOOOOOOOOCH. I go to watch the vid because WHAT!? \o/
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Use this tutorial. I swear it does everything in baby steps and makes it really simple. *I* could do it and I am an HTML moron!
That's all I've got time for... (and I really don't know the answer to most of the others!)
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-where everyone gets the equipment to do all the icons and everything they do. Seems to me that stuff costs a fortune.
They illegally download a version of Photoshop off of Kazaa. *eg*
-GIP
Gratuitous Icon Post!
-what Due South is.
A Canadian show I never really watched about a Canadian mountie played by Paul Gross. Also included Callum Keith Rennie (Leoben on BSG) as the dicky American copper dude.
That's probably all I can help you with. I still find putting up headers and all that coding stuff a big headache.
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WOW. I always thought it must be, "graphic in progress" (as opposed to WIP). But that always confused me, as it seemed lots of icons posted under that title where finished. I AM SO DUMB, omg.
It's about a mountie? cool. I don't know who Paul Gross is. Leoben scares the shit outta me.
THanks for helping me out!
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AND YES, DEAR GOD. *is relieved* :o)
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I get a new notification of that everytime a kitten upgrades my RAM.
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There's...probably a cat macro of that, too.
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DDoS attack: Denial of Service attack (I forget what the other D is for). It's what happens when an outside party, like spammers, start deluging a server, like LiveJournal's, with lots and lots of mail or other requests for connection. The server overloads and starts denying some of the requests, but it can't distinguish one request from another, and so the users get denied as often as the spammers do. That's why people can't update or post.
Rodney: One of the main characters on SGA. I don't watch, so I'm not sure which one.
How people not being able to post really isn't connected to the Great Strikethrough: See DDoS.
How people find out people are talking about them when said people are not talking to them. -- Yeah, I don't get that, either.
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http://www.livejournal.com/birthdays.bml
The person has to have their dob in their profile, though or it won't show up.
Not hotlinking; just right click, save it to your own saving place and point people at it there, not the original place. If you don't have your own web page or something, LJ hosts stuff for free depending on your account type. Imagine everytime someone looks at it, it costs a penny; you make sure it's coming out of your purse not the original poster's.
Keepign up with my list; I'm home all day, speed read and skim very fast :-)
Jo is (probably) one of the female secondary characters on Supernatural. her mother is Ellen who owns a roadhouse where hunters hang out and she wasnts to be one as her dad was. She has a thing for Dean, but who can blame her? ;-)
Rodney is a character from SG-1/SGA, arrogant, immensely smart, cute, allergic to lemons. In my icon :-)
Betas check your fic from anything from typos up, depending what level of betaing you want.
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So, you save the image to your hard drive, and then upload it. *slaps forehead* I used to know that. I started using so many places where you could upload from a url that I forgot.
I read really slow, I guess that's it.
Thanks for the explanation on Jo. I thought she was from SPN, but I never see anyone talk about her, just...name her, and it was weird. I've seen a couple eps but never heard her mentioned, must've just watched the wrong ones.
Everyone always seems to talk about Rodney. Thanks for the quick run down.
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(Anonymous) 2007-06-04 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)An apparently extremely whiny, bitchy and egotistical - but brilliant - scientist from Stargate: Atlantis. Never saw the show, but these characteristics seems to be recognized as essential by all SGA writers.
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For how to make icons, see "beg friendslist to make them for you".
For cat macros, see "insomnia."
That's all I got right now, flan-hater.
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Oh, so that's why you have all those people friended ;o)
I don't even know where people get this stuff about the macros, though. It's sort of like being fashionable. I think even if I spent all my time on it, I would never ever understand how to find out the latest in what's cool. It's a good thing I don't really give a shit.
*sticks out tongue*
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Awhile back, he studied online Star Trekkies who wrote fanfiction, then wrote a scholarly book about them. He's also studied online fanfiction writers who write m/m slash. The book was called, Textual Poachers, yadda yadda... He's since written quite a few books dealing with fandoms and online issues.
For scholars like me, who are studying online fandoms and fanfiction, he's The One We Follow, He Who Paved The Way. :-)
He's got a terrific blog, which you can read and rss-feed to your livejournal, here: http://www.henryjenkins.org/
You can read more than you ever wanted to about him, here: http://www.henryjenkins.org/aboutme.html
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BWAH! [cries copious tears.]
You'd have also watched DB with me, dude!
Also: how to keep up with the flist: I read the same 15 people's posts every day. Everyone else, I read fairly randomly, based on their subject lines. Not very fair, I'm sure, but it's the only way I can think of to keep up with the 200+ LJs on my flist. Do I feel badly? Sometimes - then I remember that beyond about 15 people, the rest are there only because they want to read the ficrecs, they're not really interested in me or my life.
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I think that must be how I do my flist too, though I don't do it on purpose. I always think I'm trying to read everyone, but mostly what I do is skim through titles and lj cut text, unless it's a particular someone I almost always read without fail.
I'll wager more than 15 people are interested in your life, but yeah, when it gets down to it, probably only 15 on *anyone's* flist are intimately interested. At any rate, we shouldn't feel bad I don't think. There's no way to know everyone.
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I don't know why I like Harry/Draco either.
Jo is a secondary character on Supernatural. Her father was a hunter who used to be friends with Sam and Dean's father. See icon.
Henry Jenkins - chair of the Comparative Media Studies Department at MIT - probably the biggest name in studies of our kind of fan culture. Or did you mean you don't understand the hoopla about him? Either way, Kita's right. See Femme for more.
I keep up with things by having a very boring job that forces me to read porn inself defence so that I don't poke my eyes out with paperclips to avoid writing form letters. I don't know about other people.
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I'm gonna have to go with I don't know what that means either. What I really wanna do is strap down a short fic writer like you and MAKE them explain to me how they can't go on and on. But then you might ask how I write long. And the only response I would have would be, "well, I just keep writing!"
Thanks for the Jo icon. I thought she had something to do with SPN but for some reason I'd never heard about her until ...oh, maybe two weeks ago.
I guess the deal with Jenkins was more about the hoopla. Now that some people have gone further in explaining who he is, I understand some of it better. One of the things that puzzled me was that even people who don't have fan studies or any kind of academia AT ALL on their radar seemed to know who he was. I guess that makes sense because they're fans...but I didn't know him.
I keep up with things by having a very boring job that forces me to read porn inself defence so that I don't poke my eyes out with paperclips to avoid writing form letters.
HEE. I used to have a similar job. Please don't poke your eyes out with paperclips, honey.
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Henry Jenkins is like the poster child for fanacademics. He wrote the first "big" book about media fandom back before zee internets. It's called Textual Poachers. In the dedications he said that proceeds from the book would go to sending his slasher wife to cons.
I know how to write short fanfic, but I don't know how to tell you how to do it. How do you write long fanfics that aren't really just strings of v. short fanfics?
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Jo is a character on SPN. She's the child of a hunter like Sam and Dean. She is young, blonde, rebellious and wants to be a hunter but her mom (who is a tough barkeeping woman with a whisky-soaked voice) doesn't want her to because her daddy died doing it. She was originally going to evolve into a love interest for Dean. Many SPN fans HATED her. They thought she was either Mary Sue-ish OR incapable. For some reason, girls who sleep with Sam are generally liked in fandom, but girls who get in on with Dean are often reviled. The same is frequently true in the RL equivalents.
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Short fanfic (around 3000 words) is really fun for me - I love it when I get an idea for an intense emotional scene, and then flesh it out. But really short drabbles (100 words) give me hives; I can't boil it down that concentrated.
For all my images, I put them in my Photobucket acct and then use the "img src=, etc." html tag.
I have a pretty small f-list, so it's easy to keep up.
There are teens in the house, and they have some kind of weird radar about what macros are funny. I just steal from them.
I know you struck it out, but I use Paintshop Pro. We got a free (legal) download of an old version, which I used for a long time. Then someone bought me a newer version (10 I believe) for about $40. Sometimes I wish I had the old one back.
Jo from Little Women? (LOL, I'm clueless too.)
Harry/Draco probably appeals because of something I observed when our kids were little. Whenever they'd get into scrapes, it was always with kids whom they played with the most often. IOW, an enemy is in some ways very close to a close friend. Sometimes animosity can come from feelings of closeness. That's why British public school stories are probably so full of slashy possibilities.
I have no radar for gossip either.
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Lists/OCD is my OTP I wish I didn't have.
Short fanfic (around 3000 words) is really fun for me
I find this almost *more* difficult than 100 words. 100 words I know I'll never get it all in there so I can accept. 3000 starts to feel roomy. 5000 feels *really* roomy, then I look at what I've done and lo, I've written 30,000 words in the space of three days. *head-->desk*
For all my images, I put them in my Photobucket acct
I was referring to images for which I couldn't find an image extension, such as .gif and .jpg. Usually I find a url by right clicking, but for lj icons, for instance, the url provided has no extension.
There are teens in the house, and they have some kind of weird radar about what macros are funny. I just steal from them.
EEEEee! That's awesome.
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Thanks for the info! That's what someone else told me too. I didn't know you could use that for that kinda thing. (I am completely ignorant in the way of the graphic, obviously). I thought you had to have Photoshop.
I thought people were talking about Jo March, too! Turns out it's a character on Supernatural.
an enemy is in some ways very close to a close friend.
Yes. And many romance stories are based on this: couples who are antagonistic (but usually later grow to love each other). Gone With The Wind, Pride and Prejudice.
But this dynamic has never really appealed to me, oddly enough. Most of my OTPs are people who are drawn to each other in a romantic sense from the get go. That's not to say they never argue or don't have problems, but I like instant attraction better than instant animosity. Which is weird, since I think the latter makes for better narrative.
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I find it weird that those icons are called macros. As a programmer, I think a macro should actively DO something. Not just sit there as passive text. (A macro in Excel, Access, or other such programs is a recorded sequence of actions which can be saved and "replayed" as needed.)
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I think flangst means fluff+angst. What the hell that means, no clue.
The theory that it was flan-related was
Did you read the Wikipedia entry on image macros? I still don't think macro is a good word for those things, but I understand now how it evolved.
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I actually found the abs kinda ick after a while. I don't know why I like looking at clothed men better than unclothed men, but I do.
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I didn't understand what you meant by formats that wouldn't be able to be uploaded onto Photobucket, but I read your comments and I think now I do...
I keep up with my flist because I remain relatively invisible/unpopular and keep it small! I can go away for several days and come back and actually catch most of the relevant stuff I missed in a few hours.
I agree with the person who commented that it's weird that things like cat macros are called macros. Where does that come from? I'm not even a programmer but I took a course on Excel and kind of learned what a macro is in that context, and it doesn't translate into funny cat pictures...
What do you mean by "people not being able to post"? Like... they push submit and it won't submit, or like they're restraining themselves from posting things they want to post because of censorship?
Online videos is easy peasy... do you mean like realplayer/windows media/quicktime? Normally when you come across a page with those videos, they'll automatically redirect you to the download site... otherwise they're pretty easy to find on Google... they all have official sites.
I also didn't understand what you meant by not understanding betas, but I read your comments and yes! I mean, I feel like I've had some good betas in Buffy fandom over time that I can now count on, but when I dip my toes into new fandoms, I get so lost. For example I've written a few little fics for The Office, a fandom in which I know pretty much no one, and you go looking for betas and there are websites that have like a list of people that have in the past said they would be willing to beta, but do you just... pick one and email them? Based on their username alone and what minimal things they have to say in their profile? It's very bizarre and uncomfortable and I end up hemming and hawing and eventually either not posting at all or posting un-beta'ed, which is BAD.
I'm now going to read explanations in your comments that I may have missed on first skim-through, and I'm upset that flangst doesn't appear to be crossed off yet, because that word confuses me greatly!
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Yeah, I meant images where I couldn't find extensions (.gif, .jpg, etc) to the url.
Here is the Wikipedia entry on image macros. I still think the word is wrong but now I understand why people use it.
"people not being able to post"
Not talking about censorship, but apparently a technical issue due to DDoS attacks. The other day I was trying to post something and it wouldn't let me, but I tried again and it did. About 30% of my flist appears unable to make posts longer than a few lines. Some can also not make long comments, or comment at all. The only bug that's affecting me is not getting comment notifications, but today it seems to be working fine on that score as well. I have no idea why it affects different users differently.
do you mean like realplayer/windows media/quicktime? Normally when you come across a page with those videos, they'll automatically redirect you to the download site.
Yes, I mean those. And to reveal how utterly unsmart I am...Semby, I can't even figure out the dl sites. It seems like I dl quicktime and there's all this other little attachy stuff I need. And I have to do stuff like choose the speed of my computer or something, and I don't know ANY of that. Part of the problem is me just being willfully ignorant, which is a much greater kind of unsmart. I don't want to have to bother with any of it more than me really not understanding it. I don't understand that part of myself, as SOME things, I'm DESPERATE to know the inner workings of. Just not of computers. Like, at all. To the point of handicap.
you go looking for betas and there are websites that have like a list of people that have in the past said they would be willing to beta, but do you just... pick one and email them? Based on their username alone and what minimal things they have to say in their profile? It's very bizarre and uncomfortable
GOD, YES. Egads. It's like that now for me and HP fandom. I think some people really do just email random people out of the blue, but I just can't bring myself to do it. If I watched The Office or knew anything about it, I'd beta for you! I'm sorry I can't be of more help.
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DDOS attacks.
Think of a server as an airport hub. So everything goes into the hub and then everything flies back out of the hub. When you post a message to me, you don't actually send it to me - you send it to the LJ server (the LJ hub, so to speak) and then LJ sends it to me. Now imagine, there's traffic jam. Instead of the 200 incoming messages that LJ can handle in an hour (in reality, it's way more, but lets keep this simple), 2000 messages come in. LJ has no way to handle this other than canceling messages (like airports canceling flights). Most of the 2000 messages it's canceling are garbage, sent in to deliberately overload the server, but some are legit. If it's a legitimate uptick in messaging, than LJ would go out and purchase another server, but it isn't. It's a group trying to close the airport.
Does that make it clear? Feel free to ask for more specifics. I'm not a network person, but I've picked up useless knowledge over the years.
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But apparently it's the result of Russain politics, or something (according to this comment).
I still think it's weird how there's all this hulabaloo in fandom and also on LJ, and some of the issues are connected and some are separate. I'm not a conspiracy theorist and I do believe in coincidences. But since I didn't get what was happening anyway I thought it was awfully strange. But now it's a bit clearer--so, thanks!
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This is how I wrote Sparing the Rod, this weeks OoS effort.
First I need to get a very, very specific visual in my head. This weeks topic was "strike" and what I finally settled on was Dru talking to a child whose throat she had ripped out. Then I think of what the flow should be. So I wanted Dru to complain that the child had spilled jam all over her dress (it turns out it's actually blood), I knew Spike would say that the child wasn't going to answer, Dru would explain that she felt spanking was wrong and then we finally get the description of the child sitting there, dead with her throat ripped out.
My first attempt was 116 words. I deleted one entire sentence and still had 8 words to cut. I rewrote one small part (originally I had written that the child's "eyes were shut tight and mouth wide open", I changed it to eyes and mouth opened wide) and got it down to exactly 100.
The big key is you want to pick one tiny moment and keep things very, very focused.
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The few times I tried to wrote drabbles I went and cut out words and sentences precisely the way you say, though. I rather like giving myself word limits (I've done it on several non-drabble fics); it makes everything so much more precise, even if I lament the cuts.
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Now that I suddenly have to work every second of the day (i didn't eat lunch until 3:30 PM last week to give you an idea), I've been having days where I don't log on to LJ period. So, I no longer keep up with anything except a permanent headache.
flangst. My definition of flangst is an angsty story where the angst is manufactured and is easily overcome (normally in one of those long speechy shouting matches.) Then the hero and heroine fall into each others arms and everythig is peachy.
hy I didn't find a plane ticket to NYC for an earlier dayW
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Gossip is something you are either attuned to or not. A lot of it comes down to social attitudes, I reckon. I come from a small village, so gossip is part of our social structure to a huge extent - it provides the support system, the social bonds that tie us together, and thus becomes a form of currency. If you aren't part of the gossip network then you are on your own if something goes wrong, and who wants that. And I tend to unconsciously carry those attitudes over to LJ. Where they come head to head with people with an urban attitude who view gossip as some sort of intrusion on their privacy. But I'm not just a peasant but a militant peasant so my response to urban attitudes involves two fingers.
But on LJ it is simple - if something turns up on my flist that I don't understand I will ask around and follow links until I have a decent context for it. It doesn't take much time. I would say the strikethrough kerfuffle shows that gossip can spread on LJ at almost the same speed as it does in our village, which is quite impressive. The only time I have found people bitching specifically about me it was not so much behind my back, since I wouldn't call a public post of someone on my flist as behind my back (although I have a feeling they were stupid enough to think it was), but if they did talk about me anywhere else I suppose I would pick up on it the same way as any other sort of gossip.
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I think you're really really right, and it's a concept I have trouble grasping sometimes.
people with an urban attitude who view gossip as some sort of intrusion on their privacy.
I'm not sure that's the issue. I think for some people gossip is automatically negative because in their experience, the reason something needs to be said about someone when the someone isn't there is it's because a bad thing, or because you're trying to hurt that someone. So gossip for those people has the connotation of being nasty or untruthful or both, and they're inclined to disbelieve, not pass it along, and think ill of those who gossip, even when the gossip is actually true or harmless. When for others, passing along stories about people who aren't there is not necessarily negative at all, just the news. I'm afraid that due to my suspicious nature, gossip more often falls into the former category for me.
if something turns up on my flist that I don't understand I will ask around and follow links until I have a decent context for it.
This makes sense to me, and it's something I do too. Well, I tend not to ask, but I poke around, sure. I like to be informed, I like to have the facts, and I like to try to come to my own opinions before putting my oar in or just taking someone's word for it.
But I've seen people jump in where they're being talked about when it's not directed at them, and wondered how they even found it. Wonder how enough to follow links around to try to figure out how they found out, but I guess I'm not good at that, because a. I still don't get how they do it and b. I've never found myself being talked about that way. Of course if it showed up on their flist or something like that, it's a completely different story.
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And of course I assume you want to know my own thoughts about stuff people have already answered. Naturally.
*I use Photoshop. Mr. D had a copy from somewhere, and I can't remember what I originally started using it for but it's become indispensable. Both for my photography hobby (mostly to correct for stuff that happens to photos during scanning) and my new interest in art (the poto and dog portraits I've done). I'm always learning something else it can do.
*I write short fanfic not because I sit down and say "hey, this fic will be short!" but because usually my fic impulse is to explain one little thing, or explore an idea, and I do not want to put in the energy to put it in its own world. So all my stuff on ff.n was born out of a germ of an idea that I did not connect with anything else. I think this goes back to some discussions we've had about what we're trying to do when we write, rather than a technique.
*I'd like to tell you how I found Henry Jenkins. Years ago, when I was in college, I heard a quote somewhere about how fanfiction is what happens when corporations own our popular heroes. I was enchanted by it, and wrote it down somewhere with Jenkins' name, but forgot who he was. I kept that quote in mind, though. When I found LJ and joined, my interest in fan dynamics exploded, and I was reintroduced.
*I haven't kept up with my flist lately, because of being gone. And getting back into keeping up has been difficult. But usually I ignore most community stuff and filter for personal journals and read them at work. I don't read everything, but most people, yeah.
*Cat macros, which I lump in with lolspeak and CAPSLOCKING: I cannot explain why this cracks my shit up. But it does. Repeatedly. Intellectually I know it's stupid, but I can't stop laughing. Especially now that I've found
*Someone up there said something about gossip attention was a personal trait. I lack it in all areas of my life; stuff goes down at work that I have no notion of until someone pulls me aside and says "I can't believe you said that! Didn't you know ______?!" Online it's even harder, I think.
*You like Harry/Dracy because you're just as human and perverse as the rest of us. It just shows itself in bizarre ways.
*Spike. I would like to get some of that. Tell me how when you find out.
I miss Spike.
*I read "most emoticons" as "most emotions." Which frankly was less sad to me than it probably should have been.
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-on Jenkins: I think it's interesting you heard about him in college. No one I talked to in college seemed to know fandom existed. I told my roomie about it, and she laughed at me and said it was stupid, and then proceeded to devour fic after fic. My roomie often did the former and I hated it, and then often did the latter too, which was something I really loved about her, except for the whole hypocrisy part. /min-rant.
-cat macros and capslock crack my shit up too. loltheorists looks awesome. Which ones have you done??! I wanna seeeeeeeeee. My favorites have to be lolpoets. I wanna make a whole series of those.
-on gossip: once I was sitting sort of next to this girl I sort of knew, but I wasn't sitting *with* her, if you know what I mean. She was talking to someone else at the table at normal volume. Then all of the sudden she said, "Oh, Joy, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were sitting right there. I didn't mean to say that." So I said, "it's okay, I didn't hear it anyway," and went back to eating my lunch.
Later I became convinced she started talking about me again after that (while I was still there) but I was so not in tune with what was going on I didn't even notice. It's not that I wasn't curious; I still think about it and kinda wish I'd heard what she said. But I have a very narrow focus, such a one-track mind, that...yeah, if you're talking smack about me I probably won't notice even if you say, LOOK JOY IM TALKIN SMACK. But this also probably has to do with an inferiority/superiority complex too: I doubt if I'm not in the room anyone remembers me enough to talk about me, and if they *do* remember they can only have awesome things to say because I am awesome. *shrugs*
You like Harry/Dracy because you're just as human and perverse as the rest of us. It just shows itself in bizarre ways.
Hee. I ♥ you.
I read "most emoticons" as "most emotions." Which frankly was less sad to me than it probably should have been.
Ha! I actually feel that I'm really good at understanding lots of different emotions. I more often feel confused by people's logic and thought processes. Their meta-awareness of their emotions, we might say.
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