Reasons To Frown

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1. I think someone on lj just spoiled me for BSG. It was about my favorite character. I'm going to kill someone.
2. I haven't gotten to see Dollhouse yet. This makes me really sad.
3. I agreed to work a lot of overtime for work. I agreed to it, so I can't complain. But I'm beginning to think I shouldn't have, not because I can't handle the work, but because I probably won't be able to handle the stress.
4. There's this boy. When I first met this boy I said to myself, "Darling [that is what I call myself, naturally], you should like this boy." Abstractly I do. He's bizarre and really weird and unfortunately awkward (which I always like), and friendly and kind and insightful and thoughtful, and likes things I like--things like Ideas and Dreams, not just music and TV and stuff, and is taller and hairier than me, which I require, and he's clever, and passionate, and has a job, and doesn't smoke, and doesn't party all the time and do drugs and drink a lot, and will go to the theater. Abstractly he's amazing. In real life he drives me up the wall and I want to beat him over the head with things, hard things that make him hurt and possibly mould him like putty into someone I don't want to push off a cliff.
5. Kids have midwinter break now, which means the museum where I work will be very crowded. We are short staffed, and did I mention the overtime thing?
6. I can't sleep any more.
7. I realized I have paid at least $180 in fines to my bank that I didn't know about.
8. This LJ thing really relaxes me, because I want to blow off steam, you know, or sometimes just say things. But it frustrates me too, the whole not-wasting time thing, and not-writing ginormous post thing.
9. Everyone else has tomorrow off.
10. Today I had three donuts, cake, icecream, and a Reese's. I feel really gross.
11. For the past two weeks I haven't had two days off together, so every day off I just felt like I was trying to catch up on sleep and laundry and grocery shopping and feeling whole again, without getting anything done.
12. I actually really want to work on my original writing now, and don't feel like I have time. Of course instead I'm writing lists.
13. I'm in charge of people at work and worry that I fail them every day.
14. I've been trying for two weeks to finish a beta for seraphcelene and catch up with marmalade_fish, and have failed spectacularly.
15. The internets and the tv are fucked up and I want to clean the bathroom and my_daroga had to miss Sweeny Todd to get us toilet paper and my room is really messy and I'll probably never get it clean again.

Things that make me happy:
1. my_daroga and household.
2. My job.
3. Reconnecting with my first internet friend.
4. Knife, by rj_anderson
5. How many on my flist have read the Vorkosigan saga.
6. Joss show.
7. Cake.
8. Reworking a short story from college.
9. Money.
10. My parents.
11. The world.
12. Having a car.

Comments

[deathmask-revel.livejournal.com]

I'm going to clean the bathroom tomorrow! (or probably today by the time you see this)Also the stairs because I just noticed how dirty they are, again. And if there's anything else I can do around the house or whatever to make you less stressy, please let me know. <3

Thank you for the candies, they made me happy.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

omg don't worry about it! It's just when I get stressed I feel like everything around me is in chaos, no matter what it's really like. When I'm not stressed everything is probably still in chaos (well, you've seen me; I'm a messy person) and I just don't care! Ha. Do whatever you need, but don't worry about me :o) But thanks so much.

I'm glad you like them, at least. You should have K's and S's, the former doesn't like them and the latter is against them for veggie reasons. Plus I have cookies from my parents; I will bring them upstairs tomorrow, so make sure to have one (uh, I don't think they'll go fast because I don't think K will like them).

Love your gun wait that sounds dirty and hope you had fun yesterday, and today. And tomorrow, for that matter :o)

[orexisbella.livejournal.com]

10. Today I had three donuts, cake, icecream, and a Reese's. I feel really gross.

I am sure you deserved every single bit of sugary awesomeness! ♥

I liked Dollhouse, I hope you will too. :)

Also, I gave up on having a clean room when I was 14. It makes you feel free! At least, that is what I tell people. My mother still isn't buying it. <_<

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I've given up having a clean room many times, and it always starts to upset me!

[incasink.livejournal.com]

Weird and Awkward!!! i love that in a man!

(thats not sarcasm)

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I totally love it too.

[discorevolver.livejournal.com]

*gasp* I just got season 4 of BSG from a friend. I would cry if someone spoiled it for me. I usually have the same response when it happens though, I tell the person to shush--post haste--and comfort myself with the thought that at least I can see how it got to that point.

Here's to hoping your week is good despite being stressful.

SMILE! ^_^

[deathmask-revel.livejournal.com]

"Prepare for HOT DICKINGS!"

I love your icon. ;)

[discorevolver.livejournal.com]

"Look at that HUGE COCK!"

^_^ Love the Tran.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

Yay! Have you started watching? Hope you enjoy.

[discorevolver.livejournal.com]

OMG Yes! I started the current season last night too. Just the first episode, but DAMN.

Poor effing EVERYONE. And I love Six.

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I am about to post my dollhouse review. I was not impressed.

If you want to push the guy off a cliff, you are obviously destined to marry him. Well, if you were in a romantic comedy movie you would be.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I know, right? Hahahaha.

Now that I've seen it, I'm off to read what you thought!

[nixve.livejournal.com]

Goodluck not wanting to push people off a cliff.

I really don't think you are failing people at work. I'm pretty sure of that.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I don't actually think I am either, but I always *feel* like it. But thanks so much.

Hope everything is going awesome with you :o)

[nixve.livejournal.com]

You're welcome.

eh, things are wonky all around. Mostly good but also frustrating and really busy.

I'll be visiting Seattle again on March 6th&7th. Any chance we could hang out that weekend?

[tkp.livejournal.com]

That would be awesome! I'm busy night of the 6th but any other time is good. Let's do something cool; I dunno what.

I saw this and for some reason thought of you. Possibly because I caught a cashier reading Owly the other day ;o)

[nixve.livejournal.com]

hmm, I will try to brainstorm something cool for that Saturday afternoon. Otherwise maybe we can catch lunch on that sunday the 8th?

aww! Cute owlets! :) woo! I'm glad the amazingness of Owly is spreading. :)

[nixve.livejournal.com]

Bad news. I won't be able to visit this weekend. :(
I'm getting a cold and it is snowing here for the next few days. I don't want to risk the icky driving conditions or getting sicker.

I'll just postpone things until the 14th/15th. Any chance you're free on either of those days?

[seraphcelene]

Re #3: Take a deep breath. Don't be stressed!! Don't! Don't!

Re #4: Isn't it interesting how that works out? I mean he should be all aces and yet ... and yet ... the desire to pummel him into unrecognizable mush is not of the good. Guys, whatever!

Re #14: I had a feeling, from the beginning, that that thing was unsalvageable. So, no worries.

[tkp.livejournal.com]

I'm actually less stressed now I'm halfway through my 10 day stretch than I was.

Yeah, dude, I dunno what my problem is with me and guys. The few people I actually *do* get attracted to I find objectively horrible; they smoke and don't have jobs and are 10 years older than me. Oy!

I don't feel that it is. I think it's awesome. I just--have a lot of thoughts about it and I need to be in a certain space to think that way and I just can't get there with work how it is! But hopefully soon. I'm sorry :o(

[seraphcelene]

Is it self-sabotage, do you think? I have some friends who always seem to fall for the worse sort of guys. I always figure it's a self-esteem issue (This is all that I'm worth) or an unadmitted disinclination to actually attach (They tend tend to pick unavailable men) Of course I am all avoid-y, so ... what do I know. ;)

You're always so supportive and encouraging. I think that thing is a craptastic, overreaching, unnecessarily ambitious, poorly executed piece of writing. And the rest of it, I kinda hate. But then again, admittedly, I am still much too close to it and the problem that I had when I began drafting it is the problem that I have now; I don't know how to fix it. So, I really look forward to your notes and comments because you totally open up my head space. And I'm just generally, always, interested in your perspective.