Fulfillment From Fanfic

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Does writing fanfiction make you happy?

Of course it does. That's why you do it. If that's not why you do it, don't tell me.

But what I want to know is, is it a happy that staves off boredom and is entertaining, rather than a happy that makes you want to jump up and down and run in circles and smile all the time because you're secretly thinking of what you're going to write next? Is it the kind of happy that makes it so you can't wait to sit down in front of your computer so you can see what happens next? Is it the kind of happy that every once in a while makes you bursty feeling?

I hope it is.

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[tkp.livejournal.com]

I feel that way when I write original fiction. And with some stuff, like that 5 Ways NFA Probably Didn't End fic. But that's Closet of Pain stuff. Like, it hurts so much it's good. And it's good when it stops, too, like you said--I totally get that wanting to read it over and over again. I do that when I finish, too. So we can be vain together.

But the longer fics I do, most of which I don't post because I never finish them, I just write whatever comes into my head, whatever, and sometimes when I like the idea I'm spouting off about, it's just so bleedin' euphoric. But then what I write in those instances isn't as...impressive, so I don't fawn over it so much. But I still reread it because hey, it still feels so fun.