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Attn: H/D fic help
...the whole five of you who would even click on a Harry/Draco fic, much less read one:
I seem to have found . . . 45,000 words worth of a crack, massive, lame, embarrassing H/D WIP on my hard drive that I don't see myself finishing, and yet every time I check it, filled with innocent bewilderment, the word count goes up another 5,000 or so.
I was wondering whether any of the <5 of you could:
a. explain to me how this got on my hard drive,
b. read it and help me,
c. shoot me now,
d. hold my hand and pet it while I dissolve into tears of despair and self-loathing, while not letting anyone involved in Jossverse know,
e. all of the above.
I seem to have found . . . 45,000 words worth of a crack, massive, lame, embarrassing H/D WIP on my hard drive that I don't see myself finishing, and yet every time I check it, filled with innocent bewilderment, the word count goes up another 5,000 or so.
I was wondering whether any of the <5 of you could:
a. explain to me how this got on my hard drive,
b. read it and help me,
c. shoot me now,
d. hold my hand and pet it while I dissolve into tears of despair and self-loathing, while not letting anyone involved in Jossverse know,
e. all of the above.
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Ah; so you're probably burned out on the poto wank, hunh? Understandable. I probably won't last much longer.
That's totally what I was asking: I just feel not obsessed anymore, and I wonder if I can be. Since Buffy ended, I haven't set my vcr to record anything. I haven't developed any new rituals. Or collected anything. I write, when I have an idea, but I'm no longer consumed. I think it's an age thing. But I miss it, the obsession, the single-mindedness, the energy of it. That's why I wonder if it will come back.
I still wander in phandom because I want a *place*. And I'm comfy with the canon. But that place isn't there, and I don't have the energy for anything else.