forget your Unified Theory of Everything

I never really saw me doing this, but here goes.

This lj was meant to be a reading list. I don't know what it is now. Some of you are people I consider friends; some I adore talking to; some I'm interested in for interest's sake; some I like hearing from; some I haven't heard from in ages; some our interests have diverged; some I'd like to keep up with but feel like I can't give you attention you deserve because of time and other constraints. Other people have added me who I'm interested because they seem like very fascinating, beautiful people who have lots to add to this world, and I haven't added them back sheerly because I've already felt so backlogged on the whole flist thing that I felt I couldn't possibly have time to click the button, much less read their contributions. I can't define what all of you are, and I can't define the list as a whole. In the end, quite frankly, I don't see why I should be compelled to bother for that one nice, neat definition.

Suffice it to say that I don't bear any hard feelings, or, what is sometimes worse, find any of you uninteresting. I just don't have the time, and don't want to waste yours if you don't feel the need to keep me friended if we don't have that mutual friended thing going on. So, I'm making some cuts to my flist. That doesn't mean that I will never speak to you again, or even never add you back again. It merely means that for the time being I'm finding it hard to keep up. I'm doing what I need to to give the people both on and off my list the attention and respect I feel every person that has something to contribute--as each of you do--deserves.

If I've hurt your feelings or you have something to say to me about this, please email me at, thekorapersonality@hotmail.com.

Let's talk about spelling.

( Of interjections and such. Please don't run away because I mentioned a part of speech. It's not a lesson. It's discussion. Also, orgasmic moaning. )

Hey! So, I have a multi-fandom poll! Take it!

( TKP's super duper dohicky fancy schmancy rockin' fandom all over the world cars are cars my car goes beep beep beep poll! )

Chapter fourteen of Best Souvernir. (Whistler never existed. Buffy and Angel meet after the End of Days is over. Future fic, alternate reality.)

A/N: Sorry about the wait. Thanks so much for your patience and anyone who is still interested. Hopefully more will come soon. Big thanks to a2zmom.


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Y. Effusive, embarrassing, and possibly kinda scary amounts of gratitude to romanyg for paid time. You're awesome with the love and make lj a cooler place to be, and not just for the random fairy gifts on the doorstep!

A. And: I'm back! For good this time I think. I helped my brother move to Gainsville, Florida--I'd never been to FL. Or Mississppi or Alabama. It's humid in Houston, but Florida is SWIMMING in it. Seriously, if you can't hold your breath for long times underwater, don't go to Florida. I nearly Wicked Witched of the West'ed.

Y. Ask a question, any question about me, about fandom, about fic, about lj, about you, about oompas or hatracks or zits or finely carved small foxes, and I'll answer to the best of my ability. Unless I don't feel like it; then you're screwed. But no, really, I want to play! *blows breath on window and draws heart with fingers*

! ZOMG thank you again romanyg!

L. Hope no one was trying to fly out of the country today. The news is always so fuckin scary, man.
I. I've been in Austin for a week or so, and will be in Florida next week to help my brother and s-i-l move. So I've been kinda spotty on the lj thing. I've missed some comments, whatnot--I'll be getting back to ya.
N. Did you miss stoney321's post about the president of a gardening company using its mailing list to encourage bigotry? Did you go to the website for the company to politely (hopefully articulately) protest? Did anyone write Adam/Steve fic? Anyone?
K. Test the Dixie/Yankeeness of your speech. You know y'ant to.
S. This game is freakishly addictive.

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( And now for fandom fun... )

ETA: "The word deadline first appeared as an American coinage that referred to the line around a military prison beyond which soldiers were authorized to shoot escaping prisoners." Think about that next time you're late on a project, MM & Mmes!

Over the last few months, I've been rewatching BtVS and AtS, and during S3 of BtVS some things began to make sense to me that hadn't before. This stuff has kinda been brewing for a long time, and it all just burped on the page, so it might not really be an essay or great meta or whatever. I'm going for three things, here:

1. To explain some things about the character of Angel to myself which might've long been obvious to you.
2. To present a cohesive way of looking at the character. There are some threads which tie together or parallel that I didn't notice before, which present a major theme for the character: he always thinks he can get something, and that he needs outside forces to motivate him to act. I'm not sure I really believe this "theme" or theory or what have you, but it's a way of looking at the character. I'm interested in the flaws of the theory as well as the ways in which it fits.
3. To take Angel down a notch or two. Because I do love the character so much, I'm interested in seeing him for what he really is rather than some fangirl construct. The viewpoint above is a slightly less exalted view than I normally take of the character, which is I guess why I think it's interesting.

This is about Angel pre-AtS. I have some ideas about how this way of looking at the character plays out in his own series, but I'll write that up another time. I also have this really weird Angel and Xander meta I need to write which connects to this, but gah, this is long. So, here it is,( a view of Angel from Liam to the end of BtVS S3 )


If you bothered to take the time to read this long boring wordy viewpointy metay thing, open to all discussion, questions, disagreements, "but that's just stupid"s and "what the hell were you thinking"s. In fact, it's open to that even if you didn't read because hey, free place here, but I'm really interested in what other people think about this.

Hi, I'm back from vacation in northern Michigan so now I'll be posting/commenting more. I'm glad so many of you folks had so much fun seeing each other at Writercon. And now some of you are seeing VK and I KNOW that's fun.

But for the past month I saw family. And I had fun. But sometimes, you get to missing fandom. Other times, I was so glad to be cut off from the computer and tv and telephone and even my car. But not my shower. ( Anyway, because I thought of you guys while I was away, and because I'm so happy to get back to my shower, here are some random moments in the wilderness. There are a few pictures. There might be more because I can't help myself. It's my favorite place, yo. )

1. So my mom's seen all of BtVS. But we're watching it a second time. And in S5 "Blood Ties", you know that scene where Dawn goes to Ben and tells him she's the Key, then Ben changes into Glory? TKMOM: OMG, Ben is Glory?
TKme: Yeah, Glory is in Ben's body.
TKMom: You mean Ben is in Glory's body?
TKme: Yeah, Glory is Ben.
TKMom: So. Glory and Ben.
TKme: Are the same person.
TKMom: Glory and Ben are the same person?

I KID YOU NOT.

2. So I'm writing smut, slashy porn type smut, with things I don't believe I've typed before and god, did I even know Angel was that raunchy, and all the sudden there's a knock on my door. So I open it up and hear, "Hello. Have you let Jesus Christ into your life today?" All I could think was Angel does feel very close to Jesus right now, yes he does. "Have you had a chance to study the Book of Mormon, the Testament of Jesus Christ?" I'm spending my quality time studying porn, thank you.

I've actually never had missionaries come to my house before, and would've really liked to've chatter with them and perhaps offer them tea, but I was so embarrassed I said no and shut the door. And I think they thought I was laughing at them, which made me really ashamed of myself. Then I went back to studying porn.

3. So (all stories start with so, apparently) I just watched The Gift. I forgot how Spike cries at the end. Then I went downstairs and there was this little rabbit the size of a hamster sitting on the stoop just outside the front door, munching on little green leaf planty things. And it felt very ironic to watch Buffy die and then see this bitty baby bunny live.

4. So Friday my brother calls to ask when my mom is coming to Michigan so he knows when to go up to see her, and my mother says she's going Tuesday, and I'm going with her. I'd been thinking about going again to see my brother and also just because I can, and that jazz, but this was so very sudden. But hey it's free, so I'm there. Since I'm going to be gone longer this time I'm going to be dropping by an internet cafe every couple days just to see what's up, but I'll be less available. But I'll be there if you want to get in contact with me, and I will also fly about randomly commenting. But anyway, toodles!

Hey kids, I'm back.

( What I did when I was away. )

( What fandom did when I was away. Links! Do YOU know what fandom gets up to at night? Links? )

Most of all, the world loved on lostakasha and sothernbangel, and there were thoughts of them both from Michigan, even if they just felt them as a tiny little warm breezes.

That's all I got. If anything happened you'd like to share/fic you wrote/discussions you're having/observations you made/meta you posted/weird stories about your pets/boring stories about your light bulbs/intimate feelings about the dissolute activities that went on in your neighbor's apartment last night, I'd love you to leave a link. It's nice to be back.

I have to go pick up my parents at the airport. My mom cultural attache'ed her way through Russia, baby. She's super duper important.